A week had passed and nothing changed . Every night I found myself in the toilet sitting on the floor and crying in pain . The pain in my chest that never ended , my face was pale and my body was weak . Sometimes I would go out of the classroom just to take some fresh air and not to throw up in front of all the students .

“ Hana , are you ok ? “ I heard Taemin’s voice once I took a seat on a random bench in the school’s playground . I smiled weakly while he pulled me into his embrace “ You’re really pale … if you want I can send you home ? “ his gentle voice made me calm a little and just smile .

“ No , I’m fine “  simply replying I went up and both of us headed back to school . Something was wrong and I can feel it , my body was getting weak and sometimes I find myself spitting blood . But if I tell Taemin or my parents they’ll be really upset and I don’t want that .

We were heading back to my house after school when I saw Eun Sun running toward us. Her small body bumped into mine and that made me lose balance , but Taemin was fast enough and captured me in his embrace . The little girl rubbed the back of her head lightly while her worry filled gaze looked at me .

“ Unnie , are you sick ? “ the curious girl asked while I smiled and took her hand in mine .

“ Don’t worry Eun Sun , uunie will be fine “ flashing a smile at her we went down the street while Taemin’s hand was on my waist giving me support .

In the end I was making something so Taemin and Eun Sun could eat . I was really happy when from time to time my gaze would catch the two figures in the living room , watching something on the TV … just like a family . My eyes widened when I remembered the thing that Taemin said , about wanting a girl . I hope one day I could be able to fulfill his wish , I want to be with him forever . The sudden pain in my chest made me drop the plate on the ground , shattering into peaces . Using the table as to support my body from falling on the ground I turned my gaze to the person looking at me .

“ Hana “ Taemin shouted before his hands reached my body “ What happened ? Why are you bleeding ? “ then I realized that my nose was bleeding without any reason . Taemin helped me clean up but then I looked around and saw Eun Sun looking at me with expressionless face , her eyes were blank .

“ It’s all your fault “ she slowly mumbled but enough for me to hear , her little finger was pointing at my boyfriend who seems to be in shock .

“ Eun Sun honey … why are you talking like that ? “  I asked but she didn’t answer , her eyes were focused on Taemin . I couldn’t help but wonder what had gotten into her , the oppa she loves … why is she talking like that .

“ It’s not Eun Sun , what have you done to her ? “ Taemin yelled making me jump a little . What is he saying , how is this possible … where is Eun Sun ?

“ We meet again Lee Taemin “ the little girl said smiling lightly with her angelic face . Then I realized that the girl in front of us was not Eun Sun … it was Soo Jin “ Hana , you’re dying . “ she turned to me before with little steps she reached for my hand  “ You’re pale and weak … I’m sure that you noticed the blood you sometime spit , the pain in your chest “ my eyes widened when she said that , I looked at Taemin who was trembling like a leaf .

“ What do you mean it’s his fault ? “ my voice was shaking a little , I was afraid of her answer . The only thing I wanted was Taemin’s happiness and this conversation was not doing any good .

“ Do you remember the curse ? He’s taking your soul so he can live normally … because you are the one he sincerely loves Hana ! You’ll give your soul to save him “ after hearing that I saw Taemin’s eyes … they were filled with pain and sorrow .

“ You witch … leave Hana and me alone ! “ he yelled going toward the little girl . My eyes widened , with all the strength  that I had , my body moved on it’s own and I found myself between Taemin and the small girl “ Move away, Hana … “ he hissed trying to push me aside but I just fell on the ground and hugged Eun Sun’s body .

“ Please stop , this is my little Eun Sun … I won’t let you harm her ! It’s not her fault that Soo Jin’s spirit is in her body “  the tears from me eyes rolled down my cheeks as I was so scared of what Taemin could do . The only thing I wanted now was everything to stop , it’s too much for me to handle .

“ Unnie why are you crying ? “ Eun Sun’s voice said before her hands wiped the tears from my eyes . A weak smile appeared on my face knowing that she was back to her normal self , yet again I turned to the person standing right behind me . His face was pale and without saying a word he went out of the house . This time I didn’t follow  instead I stayed with the little girl in my embrace , for the first time in awhile I knew that Taemin needed to be alone .

After sending Eun Sun to her house I was thinking about a lot of things . I was going to die and the dream I had will soon be the cruel reality . I know that I’m scared from the future that awaits me , but I was kind of happy that Taemin will live a normal life although it will be without me . One thing keeps bothering me , what life will the people that I love have after my death ? The only thing that I want from them is to move on , it will be hard to be themselves once I’m gone but I want to see them happy .

After the fight with Taemin , I was in no condition to eat . The only thing I did was to stay in my room looking out off the window wondering where my boyfriend went . Now when I needed him the most , when I’m so scared of facing death alone . I could clearly feel how my body was getting weaker with every day . The curse was eating my soul , but I wanted to save Taemin from this madness .

Never could I imagine that my life would be like that , but I’ll never regret meeting Taemin . He’s the person that brought light into my life , the one who showed me what true love is . I will never let go of him , even if I have to die in the most painful way .

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The next morning I rushed to the toilet , I was already loosing my strength and the spitting of blood was not helping at all . My face was paler than before and my eyes were swollen from the lack of sleep . After all the nightmares and the terrible pain was not giving me the chance to rest at least for a second . I was feeling bad , even the make-up stuff I bought so I could look more normal was not helping at all. I had no appetite , how could I eat knowing that my end is near .

When my mother saw me she dropped the plate she was holding , the worry in her eyes was making me nervous every minute . I knew that my body was weak and my face was pale like a ghost , but I never wanted to worry my parents as well .

“ Hana , what happened to you “ my mother cried pulling me into her embrace  , just then I had some of my painful moments where my whole body was shaking . I couldn’t help but to yelp in pain holding my chest with my hands . I closed my eyes and all I could hear was the desperate cries of my mother and the worried voice of my father . But now I was too weak to even open my eyes , the never ending pain was stronger than even …

The same white room , that unique  scent of every hospital . Yeah I was back in that place that I avoided so much . I hate hospitals , actually who loves them ? My body was still weak so my gaze traveled around the room where for my surprise was no one . I was alone in the hospital until I was able to hear some cries outside of the room . Breathing heavily I closed my eyes thinking that my mother must be in some state of shock . I never meant to make them suffer like that .

The door opened lightly and my father entered with my mother in his embrace , when they saw me looking at them my mother started to cry again .

“ Mom “ I mumbled, slowly looking at her , she was trying her best to not cry so she just went out of the room . I couldn’t help but to cry as well , seeing my mother like that was not in my powers to handle . 

“ Dad ? “  seeing my father on the edge of crying as well I closed my eyes trying to be strong for my parents .

“ Hana , all your symptoms shows the possibility of you having a cancer “ he stopped for a minute while I looked at him surprised. How in the world would I have cancer ? This is all because of the curse , then what’s the whole thing with the cancer “ But the strange thing is that they can’t find it , it’s like your sick but in your body there are no cancer cells “ this was something that I never expected after all this was all about the curse .

“ That means that I’m going to die right ? “ my father never answered , he just hugged me and went out of the room .

A few minutes after that a man entered the room , from the look of it he was the doctor who had told about my condition to my parents . He flashed me a smile before taking a seat on the chair next to the bed .

“ Hi , Hana , are you feeling fine ? “ he asked. I just nodded trying to lift myself a little “ Don’t push yourself too hard . I’m guessing your parents told you about your condition ? “

“ Yeah , I know that I’m going to die soon “ smiling weakly I looked at the door that have just opened . My mother entered and took a seat on the bed , she took my hand into hers and smiled weakly .

“ You have to be strong and believe that you’ll be fine … “  no matter the words of the doctor I knew that I’ll die soon , and the most shocking thing is that I’m not afraid … the only thing I wanted was for Taemin to be happy again , even without me beside him .

After the doctor went out my mother hugged me tightly , she was crying I could feel it . My heart was aching seeing her like that .

“ Mom please I don’t want to see you crying “  I said hugging her back and just then my gaze turned to the person standing in front of us, quietly watching  the scene between my mother and me .

“ Taemin “ mumbling slowly my hands slipped from my mother’s back . She went out of the room but not before hugging Taemin as well .

He slowly approached me just looking at me with his worried face , I was pretty sure that he was suffering the most . Because if he was the one dying , I would be ready to die with him .

“ Are you feeling well now ?  “ he awkwardly asked before taking a seat on the chair .

“ Yeah , don’t worry “ I smiled trying to get up from the bed , but he pushed me down the second I lifted myself .

“ No you have to rest ! How could you still smile … Hana you’re dying because of me “ almost yelling at me he stood up in front of the bed  “  I can’t take it … I have to free you from that curse “ his gentle hand touched my cheek .

“ What do you mean ? “ looking confused at his face I placed my hand on his

“ Guess this is goodbye for us “ he smiled before walking to the door . The warmth from his hand was gone and I couldn’t help but to get up from the bed .

“ You’re leaving me ? Please Taemin … I can’t live without you “  the tears were already rolling down my cheeks , while I desperately tried to reach him .

“ How can you live ?  DAMN IT … I’m killing you “

“ It’s not your fault … it’s because of the curse . Please stay with me “ my hands wrapped around his body not letting him move .

“ It’s my fault , I’m sorry … “ he slipped from my grip walking away from me . I went out the room crying , trying to reach him but it was no use , he was walking away from me … leaving me alone .

“ TAEMIN !!!  “  I yelled when my feet failed on me and my body fell on the ground “ TAEMIN … PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME “ I felt a pare of hands wrapping around my waist before pulling me up from the floor  “ Mom , he left me … Taemin is gone “ I buried my face in her neck , screaming and crying helplessly .

“ Please honey don’t cry … you’ll have to look after yourself “ she cried with me , while leading me back to the room .

“ Mom , what should I do now … I don’t want to lose him “

“ I know , but you have to look toward the future “ she brushed my hair trying to calm me down , but I knew that it was useless … Taemin is my future ! 

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