[CONTENTID1] Still Lost in the past

(Present) For Kris[/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2]

Stop. Stop. Stop.

Kris watched as the love of his life walking step by step, taking a piece of his heart with each steps he took. Kris wanted to shout STOP and wanted to cage Junmyun in his arms. Kris wanted to a lot things. Back then, he wanted all the things EXO can’t give him, things SM can’t get him so he got those by himself.

Even without you, I somehow managed to be happy.

Junmyun’s words rang in his ears.

Junmyun is happy. Something he didn’t have right now. He used SNS like a crazy fan-girl and stalked Junmyun. Junmyun looked happier these days, with Sehun.

Kris’s legs can’t support his body. He dropped down on the floor like a dead person. His face in his hands, his body shook as he cried into his hands.

One person that cannot be touched.

One person that cannot be held.

His Jun. The one and only person that he fall in love with. But in the reflections of Junmyun’s eyes, it wasn’t him. Those smiling eyes, looking up at someone who isn’t him and it hurt him. It hurts so much. And he, himself is the only person to blame.

Kris started to take the sleeping pills when he got separated with Junmyun. As months passed, one pill is no longer enough to put him under sleep. So he took two. Now he took three with alcohol. He is desperate. Kris is desperate for sleep because dreams is the only place he met his Jun.

Kris pulled out his phone. He took a long breathe in and out.

“Let them know.”

Kris talk quietly to the phone. A decision he made just now.

“Let them know that… I am in Busan, Korea.”

Kris ended the call. He is no longer crying. Kris cleared out the remnant of tears on his face. He dialed another number.

“Find me a hotel in Seoul. Make it a secret.”

Kris stands up, putting his phone back in his pocket. He put on a poker face, opening the door to meet his doctor.

“You can leave the way you entered. Another patient is waiting.” The docto