[CONTENTID1] Haphazard Chance

10 days ago [10th Oct, 2016] [/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2]

“What happens now?” Junmyun hold his phone in death grip. A doctor in front of him is telling him he as some sort of sickness that he never heard of. But what doctor says all makes sense to what is happening to him.

His constant worry of what if Sehun left him.

His panic disorder whenever he thought he was left alone again.

“I suggest you better not be in a relationship. It could make your Autophobia worse. Your work wouldn’t be affected by this kind of phobia.”

Junmyun click home screen of his phone. The picture of Sehun and Him taken on Sehunnie’s birthday this year shows up. Sehun is happily staring right back at him.

“What will happen if I am to be in a relationship? A serious one.”

“Even it’s not for serious one, Autophobia will make you think you are in love. You will expect very extreme and unnatural things from the relationship and from the other party. It could be explained in one common word. You will be an obsessive boyfriend. You will constantly worry and started to imagine things that aren’t real in the first place. Of course, it’s all the sickness. But by the time Autophobia gets control of your mind, you won’t be able to know what is real. This is why people want to cure Autophobia as soon as they’re diagnosed.”

His heart clenched. He wouldn’t harm Maknae. He wouldn’t let his Hunnie be victim of his crazy obsessiveness.

“So, this sickness be cured?”

“Gladly, yes. If you have the will, and the time, I am very happy to help you.”

A relief washed through Junmyun. He paid no mind as the doctor explained CBT (Cognitive Behavioral therapy) which is a psychotherapy. The doctor went on and on. The time he has to spend in his office and the things he shouldn’t do.

His mind only fly to Sehun.

His Sehun.

He wouldn’t say all this to his Maknae. Sehun is only tough on the surface. Sehun’s heart would break if he told him everything. Junmyun clicked home screen again. His smile appeared on his face faintly as he watched Sehun.

Sehun-ah, please wait for me a little longer.