[CONTENTID1]The Talk

(2016 - October) Present[/CONTENTID1]

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The warmth.

It’s the first thing Sehun felt when he woke up.

Sehun opens his eyes to find his beloved Leader Hyung angelic sleeping face. The curtains were up (they did not even remember to pull them down last night) so, the sunlight is softly on the Leader’s face.

For tonight, only for tonight, let’s not talk.

Sehun felt a pang in his heart as the rejection of Junmyun from two months ago strike his memory. Sehun closed his eyes again, trying not to think about the things that make him go crazy with rage, anger and frustration.

Sehun let his mind go off to last night. The pleasure, not the pain.

Their breath mingled.

Their bodies tingled.

The image of Junmyun ing under him got him hard again.

And Junmyun chooses for this moment to wake up.

“Hun?”

“Did I wake you?”

“Not you, the sun.”

Junmyun smiled at him while the rays of sunshine on him makes this morning as the best morning in his life.

“I love you.”

Sehun blurted out.

The smile on Junmyun’s face faltered. That’s when Sehun knows he just ruins his best morning ever.

“Hyung…”

“Sehun-ah, Hyung…”

“It’s ok. It’s ok if last night was just . But I just want to let you know that it was more than to me. I… I just want to let you know that… that I love you, Hyung.”

Junmyun’s heart sunk at the second confession. He helplessly looked down at his hands.

Did Sehun believe I make love with him without feelings? Junmyun couldn’t find his words.

He still couldn’t believe this perfection of human being is saying that he loves him, me, Kim Junmyun.

“You know everyone’s against it. The culture here. The company. Our parents. More importantly, our fans.”

“I saw… there are some… some minority that…”

“IT’s not the point, Sehunnie. IT’s… if you love me, there’s so much you’d lose. There’s nothing good I could bring you. I am just… I am just a dirt on your white shirt. That’s all I will be if I am your lover.”

Sehun sunk into deep thoughts. Those words stuck him hard. Dirt on my shirt? Nothing good? Is that why he kept going away from me?

“I don’t need them. Hyung, look at me. Look at me straight!”

Sehun hold Junmyun’s shoulders in his hand. His eyes holding down the Leader’s.

“Luhan Hyung. We were not dating back then. I want to make it clear for you. I never liked Luhan Hyung in a way I ever like you. Back then, when I saw Hyung and Kris I wanted to… I wanted to do something. Something bad, something to make you feel like I do. But… the result is not what I wanted or expected. I…”

“Before you birthday…”

Junmyun opened his mouth, gathering his strength.

“IVY club filming, you guys were… I thought… y