2 months.

It's been 2 months since I last wrote here and I was panicking like a girl. I could almost smile as I remember the trembling hands as I wrote them. And I had to say I'm sorry. I don't know if it's because of our schedule or just because Im not really too dedicated to write here that 2 months had already passed. Anyways, I should also add that it is hard to sneak, writing love confessions in secret in a house full of rowdy boys.

Jin hyung has graduated! I am very very proud of him. He worked hard as an idol, and as a student. Why, university is no joke. So seeing him now, I'm really happy. (aaaAAA AAA I WANNA HUG HYUNG AGAIN)

And... what I did earlier... it was... heck, i don't know. My fingers just automatically raised and touched and brushed his lips and oh gosh, did i my fingers clean? I'm really glad no one is with me now because I know my face is red. Sometimes, I'm embarrased on the things that I've been doing and showing to him lately but at the same time, I'm really glad because maybe one day, he'll get the hint and start looking at me. His Taehyung. Not his baby brother, or bandmate, or a friend.

I don't really know what to make of my feelings for Jin hyung. I cannot confess yet, that's one thing I'm sure of. I don't want to lose him because I've let my feelings get before me. But still, I can't stop feeling jealous when Jin hyung is with the other members! I want to grab him at my side or maybe I can just take him away from here and live in an isolated island. I'm possessive, I know, but it's just with him. If I could just tell them all to back off.

I really hope no one would take him away from me.

Because hell, even me doesn't know what I could do.