It's almost 5 months since the last time I've written here. Actually, I have no plans on continuing because, what's the point? I just... write and write what I feel for hyung but I can't muster any strength to say how much I really love and appreciate him. But then, with unreciprocated love, I'd always come back here, right?

The schedule was exhausting, and definitely, my health has been bad lately but Jin hyung was always there. He also helped me during the performance because I felt like my legs were jellys. But he held my hand and I felt like it only got worse lol

Jimin was really, really worried, and of course, the other hyungs and Jungkookie, but I'm really glad that Jin hyung was there to say it's all going to be okay. Of course, I see how hyung work so hard, harder than any of us maybe, and just like he had been with me, I want to be there for him, too. Yet, at the end of the day, it's him who still cares for me and the group. I love how he was so determined, and no matter how tired he is, he always tries his best to do his very best. I really love that earnest side of him.

Someday, maybe. I'd be able to tell him how I really feel. 

And on that day, I'd only write the days I've spent with him up to the nights I crawl into our bed and hear the words I want back.

So until then, please give me some courage!

P.S. Jungkook and Jimin are also worried that maybe Jin hyung had found this notebook but I don't think so because nothing changed in him ?????

P.P.S Holy , I hope not yet i'm definitely nOT READY FOR THIS