It's already 2018! This is my first entry in this year! Holidays were fun spending it with my family and the hyungs and I love their gifts! I wonder if they liked what I gave them, too? I bought Yeontan some cute toy and a scarf. Seriously, my son is really cute!

Anyway, it's really an actual pain to ask Jin hyung (yes him again because why not?) why he had been so clingy these past few days. He'd hug me from behind, ask me to sleep with him, grab my hand, (aw man i'm blushing while writing this kkkkk), he had even ride my back! Owowowowow erase erase wait I mean, he suddenly jumped from behind me and I ended up giving him a piggy back ride. Omg, I'm seriously blushing right now what am I even thinking. 

But then, everytime I'd ask him, he'd turn it to a freaking pun!!!! Seriously, that hyung! So I ended up not putting any thought into it and never bothered to ask again. Because I'm benifitting with the setup, ain't I? Beggars shouldn't complain. After all, I've been silently asking for some affection from him for years now. But I guess imagining it and the actual thing is way too far to compare.

The latest one, hyung pulled my hand and rested his forehead to mine and sERIOUSLY! I WANTED! TO! KISS! HIM! IT'S A FEW INCHES TO HEAVEN!

But being a scaredy cat, I didn't. I was frozen with a red face, and to tell you the truth, our position was awkward. I felt like I'm going to fall backwards because it also felt like he was (kind of?) pushing onto me. But I was freaking stiff we both fell over. Then hyung was laughing and he ruffled my hair and grabbed my hand again and pulled me to our bedroom. We ended up sleeping together again (can i use uwu)

It was really the best feeling! I'm very happy these days.

Cheer for me again!

I hope I'd be able to write another some good entry in this again! Something like, "me and hyung finally kissed!!!!"

Hey, that has a possibility, right????