I was going to have to send Shownu a thank you card. Minhyuk would get flowers. Or maybe I'd get them a spa gift card or something.

Shownu had lifted Hoseok and carried him into one of the bedrooms. Minhyuk had followed, all while mumbling placations towards both the potato sack Hoseok and the glowering statue Jooheon.

I waited for Jooheon to say something. He stood and made some frustrated noises for a while. Shaking his head, waving his hands vaguely, he didn't seem able to complete a sentence.

Finally, he just sighed and headed towards the kitchen. Following behind him, I decided to speak up.

"Joohoney..."

"I'm not mad at you."

"Then what are you?"

He sighed again and started pulling food off of shelves.

"I don't know. I guess I'm jealous? And I feel bad too."

I settled into one of the seats at the breakfast bar and watched him make ramyun.

"Why would you feel bad?"

"Because I can't give you what Wonho can."

I didn't know what to say to that.

I slid off my chair and tiptoed around the counter. Slipping my arms around Jooheon's waist, I rested my cheek on his back. He felt tense.

"Is this okay?"

He sighed, slouching forward, resting his hands on the counter.

"Let's break up."

I should have argued with him. I should have yelled and fought and tried to make him see that we should stay together.

My blanket was my new home. I only left for school and work. All free time was spent wrapped in dolphin printed flannel.

I had watched everything on my queue. I had watched most of the suggestions too. Two months worth of TV and self pity. It was rough, to say the least.

Hoseok had been calling every day. Ignoring his calls enough times had made him switch to texts.

From: Hoseokie
Pick up!

From: Hoseokie
Come on monbebe. Pick up.

From: Hoseokie
I'm going to keep calling until you pick up.

From: Hoseokie
Fine. I'll try tomorrow.

From: Hoseokie
Monbebeeeee!

From: Hoseokie
What happened?

From: Hoseokie
Jooheon isn't saying anything.

From: Hoseokie
Did he dump you? I'll fight him.

From: Hoseokie
Did you dump him?!

From: Hoseokie
No. You wouldn't do that.

From: Hoseokie
But I didn't think he would either...

From: Hoseokie
Changkyun says that you two ended it.

From: Hoseokie
Tell me something I didn't know.

From: Hoseokie
Jin-ok...

From: Hoseokie
Yim Jin-ok!

From: Hoseokie
Yah! Stop ignoring me!

From: Hoseokie
At least yell at me!

From: Hoseokie
I know it was my fault.

From: Hoseokie
But you're my best friend so please just talk to me. Okay?

From: Hoseokie
Fine. Then don't.

From: Hoseokie
Mom says she hasn't heard from your mom, so at least I know you're alive.

From: Hoseokie
How long are you going to do this?

From: Hoseokie
If I apologised would you answer?

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
My selfishness got in the way of your relationship.

From: Hoseokie
I wanted you for my own.

From: Hoseokie
You've always been myyyy Jin-ok.

From: Hoseokie
Even with other guys.

From: Hoseokie
I was always the most important guy.

From: Hoseokie
You were always my most important girl.

From: Hoseokie
I liked it being that way.

From: Hoseokie
We played favourites together.

From: Hoseokie
We were always numbers one and two.

From: Hoseokie
Well... You were always number one, and I was number two.

From: Hoseokie
I wasn't ready to accept third place.

From: Hoseokie
Now I feel like I've come in last.

From: Hoseokie
Whoa, fell asleep last night.

From: Hoseokie
My point is that I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry that my selfishness got in the way of your happiness.

From: Hoseokie
I never want you to be unhappy.

From: Hoseokie
I thought that I knew what was best for you.

From: Hoseokie
But now you're a hermit.

From: Hoseokie
So I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'll repeat it every day if I have to.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

From: Hoseokie
I'm sorry.

He had continued like that for a week straight. Then...

From: Hoseokie
I guess you really want nothing to do with