Junmyeon didn’t have a choice. He drew a heavy sigh as he followed the very giddy couple towards the Arrival area in Gimpo International Airport. If only his boyfriend was there to ease the nervousness his feeling.

Junmyeon felt his chest tightened as the thought of Yixing had came into his mind. He felt guilt as a part of him was longing to see the person who used to own his heart, mind and soul.

The person who had claimed his first in every aspect of his life, the person who had given him the world and left him hanging in the end.

He felt anger and confusion crept into his mind, there were so many things that he wanted to ask. What he done wrong to be left hanging.

Wasn’t I enough for you to stay?

What have I done to make you leave?

Don’t you love me enough to stay?

There were some of the reasons that he had wanted to ask the other. He tried calling, sending him message but they were all left unanswered and unread.

And here he was after a few years; he is finally going to see the person whom he had love and whom abandoned him in the end.

“Umma,hurry up!” a very giddy Sehun had called his attention as the younger one was already standing in the arrival area, unmasked from any form of disguise. Junmyeon let out a small smile as the younger one smiled freely in front of everyone. He felt a pang of envy rose in his chest as he look at the younger one whose hands was entwined with his lover and best friend.

We used to be like them he thought to himself as he saw the younger leaning towards the other slightly older male. Jongin and Sehun had been the bravest soul in the group, they were not afraid to show their love from one another. It had been a journey for everybody. Yet in the end they slowly fell into pieces

Sehun and Jongin are getting married

While he and Yixing are slowly getting there.

The thought of Yixing made him smile a bit as his thoughts wondered towards the younger man who was currently in China.

Yixing was supposed to be arriving with his ex, but later changed the date because of his schedules in China.

Yixing had been his source of strength,his pillar amidst the chaos and his knight in his darkest time. When the younger had declared his love, he had said yes to the younger hoping that it would help him move on and now it was his test to prove how much he love his boyfriend. The test of seeing Yifan again face to face

As soon as the announcement from Beijing came, Junmyeon tried to calm himself as his eyes slowly scanned the airport. And then he saw him. Standing tall and handsome as ever, Junmyeon felt his heart beating fast as the past continues to haunt him inside, his heart beating fast, as Yifan had took one step closer. His heart was beating fast, mixed emotions were raging in his chest as the hurt slowly resurfaced. Tears slowly brimmed into his eyes as he looked away from the person he used to love so much, the reason of his existence

“Hey”

Junmyeon  took a step and slowly walked away.