Confessions of an Anorexic

Description

Bringing honest awareness towards a largely misunderstood disorder through the eyes of a young victim, struggling to live when the world screams at her to die.

Foreword

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What affects 1 in 100 adolescent women?

It’s the third most common chronic illness among young adults.

20% of people suffering from it will prematurely die.

Less than half who are diagnosed will fully recover.

It’s a disorder known as anorexia nervosa—and I was diagnosed with it. Who would’ve thought that I would be that one in one hundred? They told me to just stop being different—stop caring so much, but superficial society embodies me with this mentality I just can’t push away. Now it’s eating me alive, and I don’t know what to do. They laugh at me and say the diagnosis is not true. You can’t see my rib cages, nor do I look as brittle as the norm, so all I seem to spout are lies? Lack of knowledge doesn’t change the fact that inside I know something just isn’t right. Now only one question remains… Shall I live or shall I die?

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Characters:

{KARA}

Hara - Main

Nicole

Seungyeon

{B2ST}

Hyunseung (Hara's Brother)

 

A/N: As you read this, I want you to take into consideration that this is the reality that many young women do face. It goes beyond the general understanding that all anorexics are skinny twigs that need therapy, and true facts will be revealed through this fanfic as it is based on a true story. I want to disprove the stereotypes and negative stigma that follows the word "anorexic" and bring a higher level of respect for it.

If you're curious, I'm not anorexic, but a close friend of mine was. This semester I took psychology as an option and realized there were a lot of misconceptions regarding anorexia. Because of my ignorance towards this disorder, I never took my friend seriously when she finally found the guts to admit it. She could have died at that time, and we would've been the ones responsible for not taking her seriously. After learning a bit about anorexia in Psychology, it inspired me to create this fanfic, which I have not pre-planned. Please read this with open minds ^^ This is a more personal story than some of my others, and Goo Hara will be representing my friend who struggled with this conflict. Nicole will be my persona. Most characters will be representing a person in real life.

This story is NOT about love!

~SkyeLin

Copyrighted. © SkyeLin 2011. All rights reserved.

Distribution of any kind is prohibited without the written consent of SkyeLin.

Disclaimer: The following is a work of Fiction. The events and characters are fictional and the celebrity names/images merely borrowed and do not represent who the celebrity is in real life. No offence is intended towards them, their families or friends.

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Hollywood1999 #1
Chapter 7: I really enjoyed this! It was well written. Thank you for posting!
imsozelo
#2
Chapter 8: I just saw your spotlight in the front page and wandered through your stories until I found this..
This is perfectly written, and literally showing the relation between an anorexia and foods and I know this because I used to be an anorexia too and I wasn't as skinny as what people have in their minds about this disorder.
Though, unlike your friend, I used to eat still in normal portion but purged everything out later (more like bullimic) and sometimes in the day where I decided not to eat for the whole day, I ended up binging a lot and felt extremely disgusted that led me to throw everything out again.
It was a very difficult times for me to recover from bullimia and I did have the same thoughts to commit suicide. I even scratched my arms with knife or razor everyday just to get rid off my own depression and no one knew about it. Not even my family.

Reading this story reminds me of my old times and realized how important it is to tell the others more about this matter. I hope this world will be a nicer place to accept every differences of the people, including body shapes and weight.
GZB_unicorn
#3
oh wow......
I was pressed a link wrongly, but the title of the story had taken my attention completely...
and here I am ended up reading your story topic that I've never expect to be here in aff before...

I just want to say hmmm....im glad that you've done a very great job as a best friend and "family"
she needed that and you(and the other) were there...I must say she's a quite lucky person to have you all, despite all the bad experiences that she had, I hope she got better too ^^'
LittlePanduh
#4
I'll try to keep this short, but I wanna say that this is such a tremendous story.
I had a mild case of depression that linked to anorexia nervousa. I guess you could say I was in the 'earlier stages' but I'm super thankful it didn't progress. I've also had a past friend deal with eating disorders. My point is, you may say you're not an expert, but you really broke down the typical syptoms. I could really feel and relate to what Hara and Nicole felt. Like, when Hara had her first breakdown, I really felt it too.
I'm so glad you are one of the talented who were able to publish your book.
You're a phenomenal writer. Seriously, keep up the good work. I'm not trying to put pressure on you. You're doing such a flawless job that it seems like writing is super easy for you[: authorssi Hwaiting!
travellingIdeas
#5
Chapter 8: this story really is pretty and meaningful, i love those topic you put there, i've been interested in psychology lately, and now finding you writing these kind of story, you have no idea how happy i am xD, i love you authornim
is it possible thought that anorexic is an extreme idealist? does they always imagining their foods turn into that greasy thingy? are their thought is the exact same way like what hara's thinking in the story?
thanks for writing this, anyway ^^
rainingfears_
#6
Chapter 7: Crap.
After reading this, I think I have symptoms...

I've been crazy jogging lately, and missing one day makes me deel disgusted about myself. I never knew over-exercising was a symptom of anorexia. I'll try my bestest to stop being so body conscious, even though it's hard. I don't wanna be sick. ㅜㅜ This fic motivated me a bit, thank you.
vanillacake
#7
beautiful story author-nim~
INSPIRITKIM #8
cannot wait to read it dear, you dont mind right ha.. one of my clossest friend is anorexic... i cried when she told me she's anorexic, because when people called her thin she would always convinved me that she wasnt and that shes only a bit under the "normal".. while reading this work i think ill get to understand her more... thank god i dropped on this meaningful work(: Thank you in advance.. i saw you got your first novel out!!((: i just just got to know you, but i sense smething big from you! and guess wut im from canada as well!!((: when i get back there, cuz im on a trip, ill make sure to buy it, i promise. like other people said youre an inspiration(: youre inspirational because you started litle but little by litte you got big!!! hahah!!! when ill get my firt book in hands ill be contacting you! (really hope you see this comment)