Arriving at the Apartment 

        We had finally made it back home, i was so jetlagged but i kept thinking about seungjun and just seeing him made my heart sink deeper .. I'm feeling very nostalgic, i want to talk to him but i know that won't be a good idea to. In all honesty if i told him the truth of how i felt then maybe i wouldn'y be here in this perdicament wondering ''what if?" and "Does he feel the same" maybe i'll just ask the others for some of their opinions since im sitting here fighting with my own thoughts, and just doing that is giving me a headache and i hate to constantly think about every little thing. 

      Walking around the living room after taking a shower and putting my bags to my room with the help of everyone else, i plop myself besides Yookyung and placed my head on her shoulder she knew what was going on but i just sat there and stayed quiet waiting for someone to say something because kyungie and dongho were just on their phones as the t.v played random shows 

"Hyung you doing okay?" Dongho exclaimed and i finally said something
"Actually i don't even know myself" Everyone put their phones away and put their eyes on me, i got some attention but damn this was alot actually
"Tell us Jinhyun, whats on your mind. You're making me worry" Kyungie stated in a worried tone, while Yookyung nodded to her statement 
"Its about Seungjun, he just boggles my mind and i don't know what to know about it" Kyungie nodded to me and placed a hand on mine
"We can tell Jinhyun, You looked very zoned out after that encoutnterment" Yookyung had a point, but it wasn't my fault just seeing him in general makes me finicky and anxious about everything, maybe it's just his presence? i wanted to figure it out, but how?

Flashback

"Jinhyun-ah!!" Looking around the school campus to see kyungie flailing her arms around, I smiled softly and headed towards her direction
"Oh hello little one" She did not like that way of saying hello to her, her face changed as her head bucked back|
"Little one?? Really boo boo??" I snickered a bit and hugged her, of course she would deny my love but i don't care, Then i heard Dongho and Yookyung in the distance and waved my arms to make them hurry, then all of a sudden my hand hit someones chest
"Oh my god! I am so sorry!" I looked up and it was the Senior in our College, 
"Jinhyun? its okay, It didn't hurt"
"But still, i'm so sorry Seungjun Hyung" He tussled my hair as i looked up with a big smile on my face and i saw him grin as he looked down upon me, kyungie slowly walked away and went to Yookyung them.. which i was kinda happy about because i liked having my one on one time with him
"I have to go jinhyun, but lets have dinner later~ I'll cook for you" Seungjun stated placing a hand on his chest like a gentleman, I nodded quickly
"Yes i would like that alot Hyung!"
"Of course you would my favorite Dongsaeng" He shows me his angelic smile as he went to his friends Youjin, Jihun and Heejun, and i looked back to see Kyungie and Dongho spazzing alot while Yookyung had to control their asses to calm down.

We were really closed back in school. He was 3 years older than me so we were all Sophmores here since he stayed another year to study, i never fully understood why he did that but i didn't to question it. I met him at the beginning of the school year, being alone and lost on the campus made me look around like an idiot, He then approached, i can remember it like it was yesterday. He showed me around the school and there wasn't a silent moment at all... it felt like we could talk to each other for hours on end, i loved hearing him speak in his deep yet sweet like voice to me, you can probably say i fell hard for him at first glance, but can you blame me? 

Flashback ends

They all came towards me and showed me some affection which is something i needed as of right now, I sighed loudly patting everyone's head 
"Okay, don't y'all~ i'm just overthing again" I placed my arm over my eyes and continued to sigh ontop on Yookyung's lap
"Jinhyun, if you need anything let us know okay?" Dongho came over and poked my exposed stomach which made me flinch 
"Hey hey hey okay boo boo, don't get to excited" 
"What do you mean? I ain't doing anything?!?!"
"Yeah right" Kyungie couldn't help but laugh and neither could I, it was a way to lighten up the mood a bit since i did set it a bit low in the first place though i didn't really mean to.
"Well I'm gonna say this once, Jinhyun. If you want answer than you go and call the fool, stop wondering on ''what couldv'e been" to "What can we be now?" stop pestering yourself on it" Yookyung finally chimed in and i was waiting sooo long on that
"B-but yookyung... what if .." She tapped my forehead hard 
"O-OwWw?!"
"There you go with the what if you numbnut! Just talk to him, the more you wait, the more you're going to hurt yourself" She pushed me off of her lap and put my phone in my hand
"Stop wondering and do it already"
"Okay okay i will..." taking the phone and holding it closely i excited out of the living room and into my own room. Well i shared it with dongho but i locked it so i could talk to him, and to only hear his voice.



*Phone starts to ring*

"Jinnhyun?" his voice made my body tremble
"y-yeah its me"
"I've been waiting for you to call back" his voice starts to choke up and it made me worry so much
"H-hyung whats wrong?"
"Nothing, its nothing.. but i want to talk to you.. face to face" 
"Face to face?" questioning his logic, you held the phone closely to your face awaiting his answer .. Should i tell him now or later... when we meet....if we meet that is~ i need to tell him like what yookyung said.
"Yes. thats the only way i can get this off my chest."
"Sure hyung, just text me where and i'll meet you."
"No need to text, meet me at our school by the library, tonight at 8:00 please come Jinhyun... I need to talk to you" I agreed with no hesitation as i hung up the phone.


What is so important that he needs to get this off his chest.... is something wrong? or he is gonna disown me or something, ! i can't thing straight!! WHY! WHY!