Back At Home

                    I finally made it back home, trying to wipe any evidence of me crying or anything... I looked at my phone to see the time it was 10:00 pm "Crap.. i'm going to get a lecture." Walking into the door, i closed it quietly. Iwalked slowly towards the kitchen as i thought i was in the clear, the next thing i heard was a loud *BANG* noise coming from the kitchen. Which made me flinch and turned to that direction



"AHHHHHH!" I screamed and i saw Yookyung standing there by the kitchen counter with a rolling pin in her hand as she tapped the counter slowly
"Good, you best be scared. Do you not know what time it is?"
"Yes i do, i'm sorry"
"Well you must really be feeling this boy, cause it is too late for any of us to be out. This place ain't safe for us to just roam around" Hearing her lecture me, i had this coming.. i just didn't think that she would have a weapon with her in this. That literally scared me half to death. Amongst her talking Kyungie came into the living room, after all that loud talking we were doing I wouldv'e came out to check too.

"Hey, you're home" She said while holding her phone in her hand, as if she was waiting for me to call. Then i thought "Crap i had to call her when i was coming home..."
"Yes kyungie i am home. But you look tired.. you should head to bed" She shook her head and waved a finger side to side at me
"You promised me you were going to call.... i waited for you to call"
"I know, i know its just" my sentences were cut off after Yookyung took my face and lifted it up, motioning Kyungie to come close as well.
"Jinhyun-ah... did he make you cry?" I felt the bottom and all around my eyes to feel as if it was puffy
"Boy you don't feel your eyes, we can clearly see you've been crying...." Kyungie finally chimed in with her worried thoughts, i felt the tears coming out but i held it back. I was never one to cry alot, only if i was very hurt like tonight. If seungjun wouldv'e just told me... i wouldn't still be wondering if he really cared.
"Okay okay, yeah i did, and? It's just something that happened... Its.. all his fault" I started choking up on words and kyungie ran towards me to hug me, Telling me it was okay to cry... as she patted my back. Yookyung placed her rolling pin down and wiped the tears that were falling down. I hugged her back and bawled out to them...Dongho was asleep since his work schedule were earlier than our's but i won't leave him out because i was just going to tell him tomorrow when he comes back. 
"Why can't he tell me... He brought me out there for nothing...Why?"
"What the hell do you mean for nothing? This boy never told you ??" Yookyung looked a bit pissed after hearing that.
"Pretty soon imma knock some sense in him to make him say it faster" I shook my head to tell her no, I will wait for him to say something, even if it takes months. Kyungie pulled away from the hug and wiped my cheeks,
"I'm with Yookyung on this, He needs to tell you soon. It's not healthy for you to constantly put yourself under stress." Kyungie said while wiping my cheeks still, Yookyung took a deep breath and exhaled loudly and nodded in agreement
"Mhm, kyungie is right. If he text you tomorrow... ask him if he is ready or something."
"Yeah i will you guys, thanks... but seriously i don't wanna be sad right now" We all chuckled a bit and Dongho just waltz out of our room, rubbing his eyes
"Heyyyyyy! You guys are having a moment without me?" Yookyung rolled her eyes and kyungie laughed, making me laugh as well
"Well you were sleeping boo boo. Why would we wake you up?" Yookyung exclaimed, while Dongho came over and wrapped his arms around my torso, I patted his head with a smile
"Umm because i like lovey moments" 
"Uh okay, it wasn't very lovey until now so bye" I grabbed yookyungs arm and made join in our group hug. I was honestly happy to have such a great set of friends. Though they all might get on my nerves from time to time, when i need them most they are there. And if thats not good friends are, then i don't wanna find any other group of great people unlike themselves. Seriously, i care for each of them.. We all care for each other. After our lovely family like moment we all went back to our rooms and headed off to bed, I put my phone on the charger and i noticed a text message from Seungjun, It read :

"My favorite dongsaeng, Jinhyun-ah..... I guess i couldn't tell you in person. I apologize for bringing you out on this cold night, i hope you are warm now.. since i never walked with you home. But yes please i beg of you to wait... whenever you're ready to meet me. You'll let me know okay?"

Looking at this message made me believe he was, but then i got really mad...he could message me more than when we were together face to face.....What is boggling his mind so much that he can't tell me anything?? I texted him back with this:

"Hyung, I've been ready for you to tell me, i'm waiting on you to just speak up and tell me already. My question to you is....Why won't you let me in? You tell me to wait and all of these sweet talking. Why don't you prove it instead of hesitating and making me get all confused? It's more like, whenever you're ready... then you let me kn0w"

After an hour and no reply, it was passed Midnight already and i was tired... i had no work the next couple of mornings. I just left my phone on the bed side and headed off to sleep. It felt like after a few hours someone came into my room and tried to wake me up. I groaned and shoo'd whoever it was trying to wake me

"Yah you -crack wake up" I opened my eyes and i saw kyungie standing there
"kyungie-ah... what the hell? "3:22am" I've only slept for a couple of hours im tired"
"Someone came for you, Jinhyun~~ Its Seungjun" My eyes grew big and i sat up looking at kyungie with shock and confusion
"He... he is here? In the house" Kyungie nodded and yookyung was by the door
"He kept knocking, so i woke up and opened the door. He is in the living room and won't leave until you talked to him" Yookyung kept trying to make me go outside, I stood up and walked out of my room and telling the two girls to go back to bed. They did and walked out to see him patiently waiting. I cleared my throat which made him look my way and he stood up fast.



"Jinhyun-ah you're awake"
"Yeah i am now, at least. Why are you here?" I asked with a yawn and walked a bit closer
"You said when i was ready, then to let you know" I nod slowly and waited for him to talk. He took a deep breath, while i waited i took a look at his face and it was a bit puffy.
"Okay, Jinhyun-ah.... i need to ask you something"
"Mhm, ask away i'm all ears." 
"Do you....like, me?" He asked with his blunt, yet deep soothing voice of his.. Hearing him say those words made me tremble, it was about time he asked me this.
"Yes i do... I've always had.." His eyes grew big towards my answer, as if he wasn't expecting me to say that at all. His face looked like i was going to reject him or something and if i would ever do that.. I've wanted him to ask me this, But it doesn't explain why he was being so quiet during our meetup.
"There is more i need to tell you jinhyun... I wanna tell you this before, when you were in korea"
"When i was in korea?" Then it hit me... i finally get to know why he was aching so much and why he became distant from me.
"Yes, i need to tell you that, when you left i went insane... I thought about you every single day. But not having you near made my heart ache like you wouldn't kn0w.. I distant myself from you, so i could concentrate on my work. Or so i thought"
"So you thought? What does that mean?"
"When i did that i regretted it fast.... i missed you alot more.. to the point i never went to work at times because i just couldn't think.. I need you by me"
"Seungjun hyung, you shouldv'e said something stupid~ Besides you hurting by yourself.. you idiot hyung" He laughed a bit as tears started to fall from his face.
              He also explained that him being distant was another way to cope with his feelings, it was his first time that he had fallen for the same gender.. He use to have very pretty girlfriends during school and i won't lie, i wished that he could walk around with me and tell people that i was his. But that's why i couldn't tell him anything because at the time i thought he liked females, and he thought the same as well.. until we started to talk more, and he became more loving and caring towards me.
I wiped the tears off his cheeks with my thumb and he placed his hand ontop on mine, my heart dropped as i felt his soft warm touch once more
"You drive me crazy jinhyun, i never fell so hard for someone. Especially the same gender, i needed time to think alot and now i know. I need you Jinhyun... I really do"
"So what does this mean Seungjun hyung?" I asked and he stepped closer and rested his forehead upon mine, i bit my bottom lip in anticipation
"This means... would you be mine. Offically be mine and only mine Jinhyun" Finally, finally you said the words i've been wanting to hear... If only you knew how long i've waited for this.
"Hyung, I will... I was waiting for you to ask" I told him and a big smile grew on his face from what i could see, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist.
"I'm sorry i kept you waiting, My favorite dongsaeng" I nodded to his statement and we both laughed a bit
"You better be sorry, i was awaiting this.... You pabo.." He pulls away and looks deeply in my eyes, i tapped his nose as he pulled me closer.
"Well, Forgive me for this"
"Hmm?" He leans in and kissed me softly on the lips, I never hesitated to kiss him back... This moment felt so right and i had always pictured the day that he would ask me and i would be bouncing off the walls with joy. I am very happy but when the moment actually happens, everything just goes at a standstill.. with the room quiet we embraced eachother in sweet silence.. which was honestly the best feeling ever. He pulls away once again and pinched my cheeks gently
"I kept you up longer then i shouldv'e, I'll let you sleep my love" You all don't know how much i just wanted to keep him here, but that would be too fast. I held his hand and nodded as i walked him to the door as we both stayed near in the open doorway 
"Get some rest okay Jinhyun-ah"
"Mhm i will, hyung" He leans in again and kissed my lips twice, then a couple of more times after that
"I've been wanted to do that for so long"
"I can see that hyung, now get home safely" He walks away as our hands lets go of each other and i watched him walk down to his car. I looked over the railing and he looked up at me, he waves and i waved back.. heading back inside i see Yookyung, Kyungie and Dongho by the living room. Well this will be a funny story to tell them, now won't it?