We Need To Talk!
Notice Me!I don't know what to feel right now! Should I feel worried? Sad? Anxious? Angry? I really don't know and my friends aren't much of a help either. They are telling me to go to Jiyong and 'confront' him. I'm not doing that. Ever since he kissed me last night, I've been feeling weird. After out make out session, I had wanted to get out of the car and run away but something stopped me. It was his eyes. They looked pleased so I couldn't resist. There was something else I was feeling but I can't quite put my finger on it. Was it love? Was it hate? But if I hated him, would I have returned the kiss and then not run away? I think I . . . I think I . . . Love Kwon Jiyong. But I shouldn't. We've known each other for so shortly.
I would absolutely love to confront him but my pride and ego are too big. There are so many questions in my brain that I can't go to sleep at night because it's too distracting but I'm scared. Of what, I don't know. Why did you kiss me? Am I really in love with Kwon Jiyong? If so, why? Why am I thinking of this so much? Why does he look at me differently from other girls? Are my friends right? Does he love me back? Is that why he kissed me? I could go on forever! We haven't really talked much since the kiss. The ride home was so uncomfortable. I wanted to talk to him but I kept my mouth shut and I could occasionally see him open his mouth, about to say something. I don't want to be in love. I don't want to be in love because I've watched so many movies and read so many books that I now believe that love doesn't exist. Sure, my parents are together and probably always will be but for some reason it's different. I've never had a boyfriend before but I've seen enough to know that they don't last. I want a real relationship, where I can be loved, where there are no secrets, where we will never put each other down. And maybe . . . Maybe Kwon Jiyong is that person for me. I might be wrong since I've only known him for a week but . . . I'm willing to try. I will ask him those questions. I will!
Suddenly, I heard a tap on my window. It was probably Min, my friend. That girl is crazy!
"What do you want?" I yelled,opening my window.
It wasn't Min. It was Jiyong.
"Ah, Kw-Kwon Jiyong? Wha-what are you doing here?" I stuttered.
"We need to talk. I can't keep this in anymore!" Was his reply!
O! Yay! Another chapter done. I am so grateful for the positive comments that you guys have given me. You have given me so many hope that this story will keep and going and that I shouldn't give up and that has motivated me so much! I have ideas now! This chapter might be short but the next one will be longer. And more exciting. I'm fangirling over my story right now, I'm just THAT excited. Although this chapter is in Chaerin's POV, that's not how the story will be. I wanted to you guys to know more of her backstory, if you can call it that. I am also planning to do a Jiyong POV. I'm not sure if it will be in the next chapter though. I have new plans for the next chapter.
A heart felt note from the author!
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