I opened my eyes to see the bright lights glaring down on me. I didn't want to know if I didn't die. I couldn't face everyone again. I needed to be dead. I slowly got up to see no one there. I was finally dead. I was finally gone from the world. There was an edge that looked down from. I saw everyone. I could see the world. "Kim Taehyung found in the river from suicide" "Kim Taehyung has committed suicide" "BTS member Kim Taehyung has been found dead" All over, there was news of my death. I saw a cctv clip of my death. I saw myself cut my own wrists. I looked down and saw the cuts still there. I saw myself fall into the water. I didn't know it would look like that, but apparently it did. I saw the fans and the members mourning my death, but some people were still mean. "His death was deserved" "I'm so badly he committed suicide" Those comments hurt even though he was dead. He slowly went to see s.  Jungkook, Jimin, Namjoon, Hoseok, Jin, and Yoongi. They seemed well. I knew they would be fine. But I really wondered how they were doing. I decided to look into their lives. My first person was going to Namjoon.

                 Namjoon seemed fine. He was composing music like always. I looked into his eyes to see hurt in his eyes. Surprised, I backed away. He his song that he composed. He began recording the lyrics. What I heard surprised me. On a soft melody and a voice could be heard.

You were there feeling so alone

Your eyes so cold and hurt

Pushing everyone away

I was here, but you never saw me

You walked the streets so dead

Depression slowly eating you alive

How could I save you?

Were you too far to save?

Why did you do this to me?

You left me behind with all this pain

And guilt that is eating me alive

Why did you do this to me?

You could've stayed and

I could've changed

But now that can never happen

Since you're gone

You slowly started to become so distant

So cold to everyone who came close

Scared of how they would react to you

You opened up but all I did was laugh

I regret that moment now

I wish I could turn back time

And make everything right

Now nothing can be fixed

Why did you do this to me?

You left me behind with all this pain

And guilt that is eating me alive

Why did you do this to me?

You could've stayed and

I could've changed

But now that can never happen

Since you're gone

Now please come back

Let me fix all of my mistakes

I was wrong

And it hurts so much

That I can't see you again

Why did you do this to me?

You left me behind with all this pain

And guilt that is eating me alive

Why did you do this to me?

You could've stayed and

I could've changed

But now that can never happen

Since you're gone

You were loved

So please come back to me

I'm so sorry for everything

                  Tears rolled down from my eyes. I never knew Namjoon hyung would hurt this much. I don't know if I forgive him, but heart feels like it did. I just want to come back to the world and hug him. But that means I died for no good reason. I'm starting to regret my death. Hopefully no one misses me or else I'm going to completely regret my death. 

Hello guys author here I finally updated.  Sorry school was really getting to me. I'll try to update tomorrow. To clear things up, the person talking is obviously Taehyung (first person) and he is dead. He is just upon them as a spirit. I plan to have about 7-10 chapters here but I could change.  Well please comment and up vote. Comments really motivate me to write these stories.  So please comment and I'll try to reply to everyone ^^  Love you guys all ♡♡♡