WARNING!!!

I added some curse words, to give off the feel okay. actually it;s pretty normal in these situation, especially if you're this frustrated

but if you don't like the curse words, I'll just put in some effect you know, for the sensitive ones

so and yeah, get ready for so much angst and also a bit of shock. but you expected that right?

lastly, I won't add an author's note at the end, this is my note to you guys. don;t worry I'll be updating soon, please comment for me :)

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Avoid

 

You seem to question what I’m doing

What I’m trying to do

Well isn’t it obvious?

 

I’m avoiding you

 

Yes it hurts,

 That I try to be away from you

Yes it hurts,

That I can’t feel your touch anymore

 

But it’s for the best

 

Can’t you see this is the only solution?

The only solution for me to be safe

I don’t want to feel that pain,

That excruciating pain

 

Heart clenched, mind spinning, and never ending tears

 

Yet, why does my body crave for more

At least a small chat, my mind told me

Just a simple smile, my heart told me

 

The only solution I could think of

Avoiding you

Just hurts me more

 

~

 

Forced

 

I tried to run,

But you kept on chasing me,

I need to escape,

Yet, I want to stop and face you

 

Kim Taehyung, just stop please

 

I ran out of breathe

And that gives you an advantage

I tried to run again

But my lungs are giving up on me

 

You forcefully grabbed my hand

To make me look at you

Yet, I looked down at my feet

 

You forcefully made me faced you

And you froze

 

Tears

 

“What’s the matter?”

He finally asked

 

I knew this day would come,

I’m just not ready

It’s now or never

 

~

 

Need

 

“Nothing”

 

 I answered breathlessly,

Because of running,

Because of the pain I feel in my chest,

And because of you

 

Yet, you still didn’t believe me

I wanted to say you’re the problem

Yet, it might hurt your feelings

And also mine

 

I tried to escape,

Yet your grasp on my wrist and heart

Is too tight

 

I can’t help but break down

And just let the tears fall again

You hugged me

And I want you to stay

 

But you need to go

 

It’s the best, but I just can’t accept it

I need to run, yet I want to stay

 

I just have to go

 

~

 

Go away

 

I know what I have to

Simple to say

Yet, so hard to do

 

Why am I so stupid?

 

“Please tell me what’s wrong,

I’ll do anything for you”

 

You seemed frustrated,

Yet, you proposed that you’ll do anything

I just need to say it

 

“Go away”

 

A simple sentence made you shocked

Made you look at me in disbelief

Made you bitterly laugh

Made you ask if this was a joke

 

“Why?”

 

You shook me vigorously,

Trying to get the answer

 

“Why? ‘Cuz I love you Kim Taehyung!”

And that was it, I snapped

 

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Truth

 

“Why? ‘Cuz I love you Kim Taehyung!”

 

You looked at me shocked

You asked, and that was it

 

I want everything to be over

 

“What?”

 

You stupidly asked again,

And it’s making it hard for me hold back my tears

Making it hard for me to avoid the feeling in my chest

Making it hard for me to forget you

 

“I love you Kim ing Taehyung,

You’re an idiot and it actually makes me wonder,

How I fell in love with an idiot like you

 

The day you told me about the one who captured you heart,

I felt so pathetic thinking that it was actually me

I just want to forget every pain you gave me

And you’re here, making it harder for me to do so

 

I want to move on Tae, I want to escape this feeling

And I just want to forget you, so please just go”

 

And that’s where I left, before I see you break into tears

 

 

Missing

 

I never get to see you again,

Not that I avoided you

You were gone for a week

And yet, I seem to worry about you

 

The teacher asked all of us,

Yet no one spoke until Hoseok did

 

“Seonsangnim, his dad said he’s sick”

 

It was enough for me to worry about you,

I know where you live

Yet, I don’t think I could go

 

I want to see you again

 

But things get out of hand already

It’ll just hurt me more if I did,

I told you to go away

But I didn’t mean this

 

What did you do?

How are you?

What happened after I left?

Why are you missing?

 

Can’t you see I’m freakin’ worried about you?!

 

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Help

 

Locked up in my room, I’m used to it

In front of my desk

With the novel ‘Clockwork Princess’

And a pen trapped between my fingers

 

Continuously tapping the pen

I wish time could just past quickly

I’m definitely bored,

Until someone knocked on my door

 

Finally, maybe something to do

 

As I opened the door,

I was definitely shocked who welcomed me

 

Jeon Jungkook

 

“Please, help”

 

He breathlessly said,

As he suddenly barged into my room,

This isn’t actually the first time he’s here

I can’t blame all the school projects though

 

He looked frustrated

I never even saw him like this

And I know, he definitely needs my help

 

~

 

Problem

 

You told me your problem

And that’s where I realized

This is more serious than I thought

 

“You see, I met her at this café,

No other seats were available except mine,

So I let her, I didn’t realized her impact on me…

Was this hard”

 

I could only laugh, and you could only pout

My face fell, when I realized that,

That’s my situation with Taehyung

 

Things are unexpected

Love at first sights are the worst

You never knew him in the first time,

Yet you already fell so hard

 

“What’s her name?”

“Choi Soo – in”

“Sooyoung unnie’s younger sister?”

“Yup, please help me, you’re my closest girl friend”

 

I could only nod,

And he trapped me in his arms in happiness

 

At least you have a new found love life