Scared

 

Jeon Jungkook

 

His innocent eyes, like a child

A child, that hasn’t committed any crime

A child that broke down

A child that I manage to break

 

Showing a smile, he replied the same

Asking how’ve he’s been

I regretted everything

 

“I could not blame you, if you don’t like me

Everything is unpredictable in this world

Yet, I need to let it all go

I still had hope, that you will like me back

 

But ‘till the day you told me about him

I was shattered

Yet happy that you finally found yours

But with the feelings inside of me

 

I need to tell you of course

If I don’t, it will be the end of me”

 

I knew I’ll actually break down once again

And now I’m scared

 

~

 

Secret

 

Hoping to find out

Hoping it was me

Hoping my mind will finally stop spinning

Hoping my heart will finally be in peace

 

I need to know

 

It leaked out

I knew it will sooner or later

But I never expected that it will be this day

The day I will finally know

 

The class knew that you have a liking

We just don’t know who

Until one of his friends did

 

Jung Hoseok

 

He teased us all

Mostly me

He doesn’t know about it

But in some way, it annoyed me

 

I have to know

I need to know

 

Know who has captured you heart

 

~

 

Persuasion

 

I didn’t think I was bothering you

Didn’t think I was causing a pain

Seeing you with an amusing smile,

It was enough for me to continue chanting

 

Tell me Tell me Tell me

 

I know we're really close

So why don’t you tell me

You became my friend

But I wanted more

 

I’m absolutely selfish

But who am I to blame myself

 

I need to persuade you

I need to convince you

Any synonym will do

I just need to induce you

 

“But oppa, I’m your best friend~”

 

You’re older than me

And I know I look like a child

But I just really need to know

 

Just simple persuasion will do

 

~

 

Name

 

After finally completing my mission

After finally persuading you

After finally giving you all my points

After a very stubborn moment with you

 

You finally cracked, and tell

 

You faced me with a flustered face

Yet, with an exciting grin

You stepped closer and leaned closer to my ear

My breathe hitched

 

This was it

 

My mind wandered back to your message

That message that made me confused

The stupid message that actually made me think deeply

That stupid message that actually broke me

 

Just tell me that, that message is true

And I’ll finally be in peace

 

You whispered to me the name

And I swear

Everything broke around me, even my heart

 

“Bae Joohyun”

 

~

 

Crooked

 

I know I froze

I can’t move

I don’t know what to say

But I could only let out a stupid smile

 

Of all people

My favorite unnie

My closest best friend after him and a few

My very own friend that I treated like a sister

 

“That’s great”

 

An exasperated gasp left my mouth

As I said that small lie

I don’t want him know everything

 

I just need to escape

 

I excused myself

I hear him calling out my name

As I ran away

 

I just need to go

Before you see me

Before you see my face

 

My face with tears that continues on falling, and a stupid crooked smile

 

~

 

Exhausted

 

In my room, complete darkness around me

 

I’m tired of everything

Is this what love is?

Is this what it feels?

 

A scoffed escape my lips

As tears continues to fall

A fake smile appeared

As I harshly wiped away the tear with my hand

 

This

 

Should’ve known from the start

Is this actually the outcome of everything?

 

Always admiring you from afar

I don’t know what to do

Don’t know what to say

Only a friend in your eyes

 

I’m exhausted

I just want everything to stop

Just give up, that sounds good

You’ve hurt me long enough, I need a break

 

I’m giving up on you, Kim Taehyung

 

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that's it! I'm definitely crying a waterfall here

 

the feels actually hit me so hard, I don't know what to do anymore

 

but, I really love this story, THAT'S WHY I AM SO NOT STOPPING NOW

 

still gonna shower all of you with feels though, I'm definitely not sorry for that

 

By the way, thanks for the new subbies and comments, it really means a lot.

 

so see you at the next chapter, be prepared for another waterfall of tears and angst :)