LOL Not really.

I really don't have time to do this, but what are fun are things you have no time for... like say a round of playstation, or starting a new drama while your drama is being translated. :)

Well, funnily, the time I discovered AFF was just a few months short of me entering University Part II... and a few months after I discovered TOP who I discovered during the GD and TOP era. Hence my extreme fixation with his platinum hair and foxy faux hawk. :3

I liked TOP in an unfair fashion, as it started with a viscious dislike for him outshining my then numero uno bias... g to the d, who discovered during his heartbreaker era... and who can dislike GD exactly. He's a blond asian, your argument is invalid.

Also, we have the same shade of lipstick... go away.

I really, really liked GD for a time. Though I deny it now, I may have had a thing for him and his scrawny androgenous y. But again, I deny it.

Because after a while I thought he looked like my brother.

And that is just kind of gross.

So... I actually discovered AFF because of GD where... I read... le gasp... DaraGon. O.O

I was an appler for like a breath's moment. Except not really, it kind of lasted for a few months. Really, I was into it, Appler style. I watched "investigations" and weirdly contorted facts to think this was real and that was real and I was completely out of it.

In hindsight, maybe my thing for GD was intense because I wanted to live vicariously through Dara so bad... Now, I kinda think that it's sad. Ahaha.

So, yeah... I dunno. Around 2010, I was pretty much a solid Apple and read my first DaraGon Fanfic 1,000 Cranes which I didn't really like, then stumbled on AFF and discovered... wait for it... Hagocimit.

Hagocimit is probably my intiation to fire. Her imagination is right there up that scale. My first AFF story is Stubborn Hearts and it was delightful and funny and just a wonderful experience. It had over 50 good length chapters and I finished it overnight and felt so satisfied and like a loser all at the same time. And that went on. I read all of Hagocimit's stories... None of them as impactful as the first. I did like The Shadows, but not as much as Stubborn Hearts. I don't think I'd ever like anything like Stubborn Hearts because it was my first, and it was lovely. Like my first love and it is now engulfed in that mystic appeal of firsts. I went back and read it and really it wasn't that good. But it's still is the best... if you know what I mean.

I do have some experience with fanfiction, as I have been writing since I was around 14? Younger? But I was kind of reluctant to go KPop, because well, kpop is unbelievably out of character for me. I am borderline psychotic (exagerration) but really my friends think I'd be a serial killer at one point in my life and just Lollipop isn't a kind of serial theme, is it? So, I kind of exuded some bad exterior, liking certain things like Alternative Rock and Grunge and Linkin Park (which is New Age Metal or something Punk Metal? Or what?) and I cannot like Kpop. I can not.

So I love me some GD and 2ne1 on the sly. Secretly. I will never write for Kpop. Never ever ever, not by the hair on my chiny-chin-chin. Not that I have facial hair. I'm asian, gaddamit.

But then, let's just pause for a bit, and circumnavigate to my TOPscovery.

It was at the time when Big Bang was laying low and I didn't mind. At that time, I was not a VIP. I was a GD Stang. Dragonier. Or something. Then out came this album for GD and TOP and I'm all like, why have this TOP character. Why? Why do I have to spell his name in all caps, like he is worth the effort of pressing down the shift key. Who the heck is this TOP?

So, I bought the album, did not listen to this TOP character... he always freaking startled me because his voice is all wrong and deep and gravely and y.

No. TOP. Just no.

But then fateful KJE performance happened. And by the dragon gods what is GD wearing, what is TOP wearing?

I watch their performance of Haru Haru. Curtains part. Audience go wild. I am all chest puffed being proud of my Kwon-leader. Camera pans. Leader! Then pans to the side. Oh, that TOP-person looking so weird with his weird cheeky cheek bones. TOP bows. Sevvy internalizes that she doesn't like TOP.

Song starts with GD soft speaking/singing voice. TOP enters. I get startled. Exchanging lines. Everytime TOP goes of I give off a weird jolt. Jesus Christ, TOP-person why? Why? Why?

And he gives weird ad libs. Whirl? Whirl?

How about no. TOP. No.

GD goes say Nanana. Silence.

TOP goes Nanana... then GD fast pace rap. Audience NR.

TOP launches off. Sev gives a rather vicious jolt and people cheer.

Okay, TOP. I dislike you.

Dislike. Dislikkkkkeeee.

Hence, I will search your freaking face on tumblr because I dislike you. You are a weirdo.

And I am not listening to Haru Haru over and over like I like your voice or anything. I don't. Please get over yourself.

You think you're such a ing keener with your keener suit and keener eyebrows.

No. No.

No.

No.

Then I kinda of realized... well, I am focusing too much on TOP and forgetting GD. OTL

I was all, ugh. TOP is so annoying let me look up his photos so I can dislike his face.

I mean look at that face. There is something wrong with his eyebrows! i mean it's so thick and bushy and wonderful.

And his lips. His lips are so weird like a cat's, and the upper and lower lips are disproportionate. Plumper lower bottom... like... like.. I don't even know. His lower teeth is weird crooked too.

I see your crooked lower teeth.

And his cheekbones are odd as well as his jaw. Just dislike.

And he ate snow.

:I

I will never like you.

But as is obvious I already did and that snow eating was weird and disturbing that after that nothing he could do would be weird anymore.

It was a set up. OTL

So it kind of started as a very weird anti-TOP vendetta: Let me watch him and dislike him! Ugh I hate him so much.

God I hate him so much. WHY IS HE SO COOL???

Then it kinda just escalated into a TOPscension.

And well, I was a goner.

Then... well... I looked through his vids. Everything. Then lo and behold Red Roc's Hello.

Okay, I admit. I was so confused when I found this. TOP so young. Red Roc sounds vaguely like TOP and I was like whoa... TOP goes slightly reggae and cool and hot and dhfgsigljfh. Hello, Hello. HEEEELLLOOO.

HELLOOOO...

Sweaty TOP is the best.

Um.

He is soooo cute and not at all y. And when I say not at all I mean like all the ing way.

And head shaving has never. SERIOUSLY. Never looked like such a ing mind blowimg pre lude to some angry loving. And when I say loving I mean like .

So sev, is just merrily skipping rope. Happy and just feeling TOP Stan Satisfied. Oh, TOP is in Gummy Video.

No beans. I'mma watch this.

Then... hahaha. It has Dara.

Now, I may have left this out but I like 2ne1 from back in their debut. They were my kpop advent and I like Dara the bestest. And I was still a bit of a Daragon, when I started TOPsessing.

But then this happened.

And well, after seeing TOP cry I pretty much abandoned the daragon ship, entered myself to AFF and began my career as super secretseven, aka tabisan's laziest writer. I was into kpop for about a year and half before I joined AFF. And as much of a Daraling, GD stan as I was. SecretSeven was made because of TOP. I do ship tabisan, but really, I ship TOP with happiness and I don't know if anything made sense. I am off to have lunch.