BUT WAIT? SEVVY? WHO IS THAT? WHO ARE YOU? WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE?

Hello pals, it's me. Sevvy. How have you all been? Well, I hope? I am wandering the blog portion of AFF because I have things to say... nowhere to say it that's appropriate. Ha. Sometimes you know. You just want an audience to rant at who are not related to you or anything about you... just you know... the idea I can take a huge dump and no one will follow me around and know I stink... Poop analogies. Can I get a hell yeaaaah?

As you may or may not know (or care), I am basically quitting AFF, but wont do all that drama as saying good bye or because... I have reasons. Like it always felt when I left and say good bye that I wanted someone to stop me. And then even if there is that subconscious thought is there I hate it when people tell me not to leave, like, what? Do I owe you anything to finish your entertainment? no.

I left (or am leaving) AFF because I no longer feel fulfillment in being a part of this community. Don't get me wrong, I will always love TOPDara... I just... I don't NEED to write about them anymore. I don't need comments, or subscriptions. People who I truly call friends here are gone, or pops by from time to time. I just have nothing.

I would give away my karma... but then again, I would hate people who actually want karma to have karma... do you know what I mean? Like if you ask for it you can't ing have it. But then again I just might be really greedy.

If you want to know, I have stopped writing completely. I wish that wasn't the case, but I just... I no longer want to put my creative self out there. I will keep her in me... and not explore dark places. Sometimes, yes... I do regret it.

There is nothing more freeing than writing... but then again freedom is like free falling and you don't exactly know if the crash will kill you or a moment you realize in shock that there is nothing on the bottom.

Oh well. Introspection inspection.

I am actually on break and am annoyed with people... or everyone... or everything... I just want the world to stop, you know, trying to interact with me. Hahaha. I know antisocial tendencies are often associated wit sociopaths but people... everyone just disappoints me. And I know that's so pompous off me thinking I am right all the time. But you know what, people could just go and hang and leave me alone to my world where I am correct and everyone is not.

I wanted to be here, you know, just to hang out where nothing is of consequence.  Like tell people and be afraid anyone would get offended. Whatever. Living IRL is super stupid. I hate the becheeses out of everything.

Sooooo have hear TOP is doing pot? And while I am an occasional pot user, I can't really say anything more than it's illegal in Korea. Pot is not a big deal. But breaking the law is... and whatever.... I mean, my opinion doesn't matter. I mean, I love TOP. He can kick a puppy and I'd still love him... maybe?

Whatever. I like pot. I smoked pot in places that it was legal. Places that it wasn't. Cigarettes are exponentially more lethal...

Just you know.

I don't really care.

I mean I am worried about the consequences for him, but I am thinking that he is at the point of his career that it would possibly be dented but still intact....

Yeah.

I wanted to answer this questionaire because I like answering questions. It boosts my ego, and I learn about myself. I am an introvert, and I like that . You may read this if you want. You may comment if you want. You can move on with your day and murder someone. Just you know, don't tell them I sent you.

1. How did you come up with your username and what does it mean?

My username is secretseven because I am secretly seven. like years old.

No, I'm kidding. Because I like having personas on the net. This was supposed to be the secret of seven because I am way too cool for fanfiction IRL. (I'm not, but I like thinking I am.

2. Which is your most subscribed to, story?

Inappropriate Arrangement before the edits. Right now... I think it's Obsessed. Obsessed was supposed to be thriller but it became a melo. Weird

3. Why did you pick your user photo/thumbnail?

Because I love TOP? His little smile, that eye crinkle. His biceps... his triceps, his thighs.... Uhh... oh sorry you're still here?

4. Who is your AFF bestie?

No one. I am a lone wolf.

LOL. But it used to be Chang. Then Devi. Then no one because. Uhhh.. I don't know how to make friends and keep them. Boo the ing hoo sevvy.

5. Is there a fanfic that you keep going back to read again and again?

Not lately. If the sin of love ever was finished I would. I was starting to re-read Burning Time by Misora which is a Witch Hunter Robin Fanfic that I remember loving. It just crosses that series with really good myths and histories about witches, wickans and egyptian lore. That was very, amazingly done.

And I like me some Robin and Amon.

6. How many stories are you subscribed to?

I don't know. Last I checked it's a hundred. I don't read fanfiction anymore though.

7. What AU do you find yourself writing about most?

I don't write AU? Uhh... AU is about writing an alternate reality from cannon. In AFF fanfiction, there is no cannon. Unless you mean cannon to be their idol life, then everything is cannon?

8. How many friends do you have?

I've had over 2000 then 9 then 100 then 500... I mean, I don't believe in friends on AFF. In real life, I probably only have a few... like 10...

or more...

I don't like people

9. Is there something you'd like to write about but are afraid of people judging you for it? (Feeling brave? If so, share it!)

On AFF I write whatever I want. IRL it's harder. It's not being judged by your ideas rather it's never as good as I want it to be.

I wrote several stories IRL and they never seem good enough. I know in my head it's magic. But I am just not good enough to write them. It's sad.

10. Is there anything you would like to be better at on AFF? Writing, graphic design (posters), replying to comments, updating regularly, etc..?

Being a pissy brat? Uh that's not AFF, that's just me. I don't know. Maybe being affected to much. Taking comments in stride. Maybe having good mental health and not being offended by people who like me/my stories. ha.

11. How many subscribers do you have?

13420... but you know I don't really care? Or maybe I do care... You know what I care about? How many people who tell me to update soon. That's what I ing care about.

12. How many stories have you posted online to this day (finished and unfinished)?

Currently I have 33, but that has gone down. It was up to fifty one time and I just delete it.

13. How many stories do you have saved in your writing program?

I don't save my stories for AFF outside AFF. Hahaha. This is why when the site crashed, everything went down. lol My stories IRL around I'd say 10 in different draft versions. I was pursuing publishing IRL.

14. Do you write down story ideas, or just keep them in your head?

I keep them in my head then I forget them. If it's persistent or I am in love with an idea, I write it.

15. Have you ever co-authored a story?

Yes. I was planning to co-author with ChangDictator, and Jhananana. Those two are pretty big deals.

I posted a story co-authored with Kay_tea... that fell through though. It just got overly popular, and I don't know where I lost what I wanted to happen.

16. How did you discover AFF?

I was looking for a daragon fanfiction. Hahahahahahaha. I am dying.

17. Do you consider yourself to be a popular or famous author on AFF?

Partially yes. This is why I felt like I should leave. I felt attacked most of the time, and blech. Popularity? I don't want that.

18. Do you have a nickname or fandom name for your readers?

that.

19. Was there an AFF author who inspired or encouraged you to write?

I wrote the most when Chang was still here. She made me feel like I was a good writer.

20. How many karma points do you have?

None of your beezwax. I have around 20K then I gave some away. then sometimes people give them to me.

21. What writing advice would you give to a beginning author?

Don't do cliches, they're gross. LOL

Just kidding.

Write what you want. Explore writing techniques. Don't think of comments as places you go to get praised. Try to make it a writing experience for both of you... writer/reader. Don't take it to seriously.

It's just fanfiction and I mean that in the most positive way.

22. Do you plot out your stories, or do you just figure it out as you go?

I am unfortunately and off the pantser. Realistically, writing a novel that way is stupid. I am stupid what can I tell you.

23. Have you ever gotten a bad review or comment on a story? If so, what did you do?

I honestly don't remember. I did get into a fight about facts on adrenaline in my sci-fi fic. But that person is wrong and I blocked her. so she created an account to tell me ... and that was really stupid experience..

I remember a person telling me to slit my throat, but hey, I don't remember why.

24. Is there a certain type of scene that you have a hard time writing? (action, , etc..)

Hmmm. I want to say nothing. I want to be able to write better in general like to have it more action oriented and . I just dwell and I just think nothing is good enough. I always write mellow and I want it to be more... action?

25. What story(s) are you working on now?

Nothing. Haha. Can someone pray or something so sevvy can get her writing mojo back?

26. Do you plan your next project(s) before you finish your current ongoing story(s)?

Plans? Define plans? I do not plan. Off the pantser is the plan.

27. Do you have a daily writing goal set for yourself?

I used to aim to write at least 2000 words a day. I don't write anymore. Like outside work. it's zip. Nada. Donde esta? I was trying to be funny. Do not mock my spanish!

28. Do you think you've improved as a writer since you first started?

Yes. But I also took Professional Writing in University, and I really would attribute any improvement in that than AFF.

29. What is your favorite story that you've written?

The Truth About Boys and Lions.

30. What is your least favorite story that you've written?

Nothing. I would use to say IA. But it isn't. I was just being a prick.

31. Where do you see yourself (as a writer) in 5 years?

I hopefully have been published.. but at this rate of writing nothing... that's kind of...

32. How many upvotes do you have?

Is there a stat for that? Lemme look 871! Wow they have stats for that now?!

33. What is the easiest thing about writing?

I don't think it's easy per se. It's more the fulfillment of the id. The super-ego. The ego. The freedom to create and know no bounds. In that moment you are god.

34. What is the hardest thing about writing?

Not being a good god? Hahaha. I would say having the cycle completed by another person. Being read is very intrusive in a way, but there is a need for it.

35. Why do you write?

I was always a good writer. In school, I mean. I won awards and stuff and one of my instructors told me I can be a writer. I always liked making up too. I think the best games are immersive and tells you an epic story. I want to do that. To create something, to have your thoughts spelled out, like your coherent and ... that's... that's amazing.

I also loved books since I started reading... I just think the written word.... it's morphine man, it's ... it's amazeballs.