I don't know why... I feel so unenthused with AFF, it's bordering maybe I should quit this. But then again, there are stories, I want to continue. Stories I want to write. I don't know... possibly because I quit so many things in my life like tumblr, FFnet, MGF and those things that host my writing, once upon a time, now I feel like I shouldn't quit AFF no matter how boring it becomes, because you know, I don't really want to be branded a quitter all my life.

I like writing, but not writing in a mass productive kinda way. I have no interest in my stories lately. I have such wierd feelings towards my older ff, some of them heading in the direction of calm denoument (or just a declining slope) when I've always felt anxious in calm. I can never really hold still which is why I always liked writing because my head goes on a pinball rampage and you know, I like all the mental dings! like my head actuall has a purpose than being put atop my shoulders.

If you were wondering if atop was purposelly picked... of course it is. I use TOP every chance I get. TOPical ATOP, TOPsyturvey, TOPTOPTOP.

But you know what makes AFF more boring? It's the number of stories marked subscribers only without even an attempt of a description. Now, I don't read new stories because writers are too lazy to write descriptions, and I am too vindictive to subscribe.

Why would I subscribe to something I have no knowledge of, as in zip, sero, nilch. I like TabiSan but I won't read a TabiSan story with just a TabiSan stamped on it. No. If you don't bother with teasers then your writing is probably more lazy than mine, which is awful because my writing is pretty much one hundred percen sloth. I am so boreddddd....

I don't want to sub any stories who are haughty enough to be subscribers only without a goddam preview, because  it's obvious that you are basically obligating people to sub.

I obligate people to sub though. Because I hate non-subbers, why can't people just ing sub if you like something.

Whatever.

Then the extreme lack of response. Comments. Though I do not like Update Soon with dragon fire passion, the silence I find boring and I don't want to write an update anymore knowing that my reward would be just quiet... I am so bored.

AFF is so boring.