Announcement!!! (Please read)

ANNOUNCEMENT BY ACHINI EVERYONE!!!!

(If anyone cares to read, that is)

I'm in quite a problem here, a very SERIOUS one, and that again, is if anyone cares to listen.

Yeah, so, if anyone does, I would be REALLY HAPPY if you care to leave your opinion too.

Here's the point.

I, Achini, hereby declare to not to publish any of my stories here on Asian Fan Fics.

There, I said it. I'm not going to publish on AFF anymore. I know, I'm too shallow and naive to make such a decision, but really. I'm reader deprived, and that's SAD right? I tried whatever I could to get readers because, hear me out! I'm SO CONFIDENT in my writing, I don't downcast myself in that aspect because, I may not be the most perfect writer, but I TRY to be good, I TRY MY BEST to write the BEST I could do and give them my best, but the thing is;

TO WHOM AM I GIVING MY BEST WHEN NOBODY IS THERE TO READ WHAT I WRITE?

And that's just sad. And stupid, and vague and completely irrational. I know. It's shameful. I shouldn't even think it that way because, like everybody else, I write to undergo my frustrations and pain. But writing here, it makes my frustration even worse. I feel like I'm running around in circles, trying to chase after something that I would never get hold of. I don't want to do that! I don't even have time to write, but I just love doing this. And that's exactly the reason WHY I stay up late (And I mean really late that I witness the sunrise most of the time) and write my heart out, and publish. But at the end of the day, I feel useless because not even my views would go up, and what hurts me more is that;

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY!?!

I'm a silly woman, alright. And I KNOW that I shouldn't be doing this. Thinking of leaving AFF I mean, because I love it here, because I have LOADS of friends and I have SO MUCH FUN here but being reader deprived is sad. I want to be a cool, awesome, well-known writer like the writers that I love here on AFF.

I did see this blog post about this problem I have by somebody else, (I'm sorry, I don't remember who it was) about how I could gain more readers. It said I should read other people's stories and leave them comments; and HELL! THAT'S WHAT I DO HALF OF THE TIME! I LOVE to read what other people write because all of them are so good, I admit, a lot better than myself but I don't take it as a reason to down cast myself, because;

a) I'm from a country where English is NOT the first language, not even the second because the second is Tamil. English is the third language but I learn and try to perfect it, so provided that there are many who are from English-speaking countries, it makes me sad when I'm degraded because of my mistakes (Grammar and spellings, equally) but I LOVE, I mean, I L.O.V.E  IT when people show me my mistakes because I tend to learn from them, and I LOVE it when people criticize, I will give them strawberries, that's a promise, if people leave me LONG CRITICIZING comments. That's my remedy, and that makes me the HAPPIEST WOMAN on earth. But in reality, I'm more like...

...Ignored...

b) I'm not a very literal person, I haven't even studied literature because my literature teacher scared me, (She was big and dark and had a big voice and made me by-heart a poem and I'm telling you, I can't even by-heart all the names of Super Junior members, so I decided to not to study literature. I studied statistics and French instead) Call me silly. I know. But yeah. I don't even know half of the literature terms but still, I take it as granted and write. I've been writing for eleven years now.

c) I don't have a separate computer, I use my brother's which he seldom let me use, and when he does, it's from 1.00 in the midnight to 8.00 in the morning. I hardly get a good sleep. I mean, writing takes up my sleeping time! The only advantage is I always get to see the sunrise and the sunrise in our area is SUCH a beautiful sight, so yeah. I'm happy about that, but not about my face. My eyes have formed eye-bags really ugly and big enough to carry bananas and my Omma complains that if I go around with that face, I will never find my life partner. not that I care, really. But I don't like to hear her ranting. Besides, that is the reason why I have so many mistakes in my writing because when I'm done writing for the day, my eyes are barely open. My brain is asleep (That's a biological fact. The brain sleeps at night right?) while my eyes are open, therefore it could barely register the mistakes I have done. I re-check them on my phone the next day but it doesn't allow me to make any changes. Sadly.

d) I AM SO BAD at attracting people by the title of my story. I guess its the main reason why I don't get many readers, because my titles don't represent my stories entirely. I'm sorry about that though. But, well, my name explains, in sinhalese it means "Someone who's bad at thinking" and I'm bad at thinking good titles for my stories. :D That's a fated trait I guess. So I should probably get someone to think good titles for me.

e) I'm a big infinite fan and I could only fit THEM in my stories as characters, and yeah, this is ASIAN FAN FICS. I mean, isn't this a space for us to write fics on ANY Asian idol that we love? But here's the thing that I observed. Recently AFF happened to become a very BIASED site, I'm telling you. And that's nobody's fault. I read all kinds of stories and I'm happy for all who are doing well with all the kinds of stories they write about any idol/idol group they write about. But what saddens me is that these days, its very much biased that who need attention don't get the attention that they deserve. Oh! that's not anyone's fault either. But I'm at fault that I can't fit some characters into my stories. I'm sorry.

f) I LOVE OTPs. I really really do. I love MyungZy and GyuJI and MyungYeol and MyungJong and GyuYeon and MyungYeon and yes, I ship Ailee and Woohyun too, and I'm happy writing stories on OTPs but the thing is, OTPs don't ALWAYS fit in the plot of the story. So to make it perfect, I use OCs so it's always a matter about the story I write and its plot and genre and what makes the story. And at times, I'm in a dilemma. Sometimes I wouldn't use OTPs at all.

I guess I gave all my points and reasons, here and my need to leave the site.

BUT

I won't jump into decisions that easily. I am not that delusional. Plus I LOVE it here, so I want your opinion. Answer me to this simple questions.

1/. Should I really leave AFF?

2/. If not, why?

3/. If so, how can I gain more readers?

4/. What should I do to become a great AFF author?

5/. Am I really worth being here?

Answer me to these simple questions and tell me what I really need to do.

And I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that you would care to respond. Because I'm a sad soul. I'm sadder than a Myung with no Yeol, A Gyu with no Banana so yeah.

Please do care to help me?

Pretty please?

THANK YOU!!!!

 

Gif cr; owners

 

 

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bluesjuice #1
Hi, I just read this post. And glad that you passed your problem, of course, how can such a good (more than good actually, I just don't know the word) writer like you leave aff.
The funny is, my current problem just exactly like what you wrote here, the different is you passed it and I still trying to assure myself to keep writing.
I haven't even finished my campus research just for writing my story, for a God sake, my parent kept nagging me because of it. My friends don't even stop telling me 'you wasting your time for NOTHING'. TT^TT I can't even defend myself and tell them writing is my passion and I was born with it.
But what I got from reader just 'update soon', heigh, not even 'I like the story' or 'oh cute'. But of course, sometimes, some loyal reader gave me long comment but the saddest is I got it rarely. Sometimes I was so angry that I stop thinking for the next chapter.
I still believe that my story's idea are good. I'm kinda proud of it, my brain can be so crazy for getting idea, I'm sure about it. I thought to myself, that it's because my poor english that reader don't really understand my point, I keep learning and increasing my skill but I don't understand why reader couldn't give me more appreciation. Sad. T^T

But anyway, thanks to your last night post, it does help my confident rising to keep writing.
Sincerly thank you :)
Hirushi #2
Akki, I saw this just now. Pleas dont leave! You know I love your stories. And I'm pretty sure there's a LOAD of other people too. Your stories are great! English is not your mother tongue, so dont be ashamed of mistakes. Senuri told me that you stay up the whole night to write, so I know about that. You shouldn't leave AFF. You are a great writer. But people dont always get time to read. I have to admit even i couldnt read any of your recent stories because i was busy with school work. I apologize for that. Akki, even if you leave, how can that help you to be recognized? You have to stay. People still do read your stories! Your stories even make my day sometimes. Dont ever stop writing. Do what you love. Besides you are good at writing. So why stop because you have less readers? There are people who love you and your stories. Write for them and for yourself. You should be here. You shouldn't leave. I hope I helped. :)
informantxgirl #3
It'd be a shame if you left & didn't continue doing what you love. I can say "Just ignore everyone", but I know it's hard. I find it disheartening too, sometimes, of course, but I try to remember that people can be shy or busy or just plain not know what to say and that's why they don't comment or don't see my stories (which, yes, most are oneshots, so like was said below, can be kind of hard to hook people). Um, solid suggestion? Well, instead of breaking up all your oneshots into different stories, maybe collect them all into one story so people can subscribe and see different updates? It will help bring the story to the 'updated' section more often.
Here's a list of beta shops that can read your stuff & give you advice: http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/540951/110/the-library-closed-review-open-recommendations-reviewshop
I like having my stuff reviewed b/c reviewers will see your stories in a different way; unlike readers, they are not just looking for entertainment, they will focus on things like plot, flow, etc., point out things we and our readers may never pick up on, it's like having a professional search team out looking for evidence. :D
As for having to share a computer with your brother - ack, I remember doing that and I HATED it. Is there an app on your phone where you can write and then transfer the stories later? So you don't have to waste time rewriting? it's hard to type on a phone, but you can just write what you can and make notes or use short forms that you can fix up later to save time on your actual writing. A good old-fashioned notebook can never be beat! I jot down ideas in mine & they really help w/ my organization. And they don't need to be recharged!
Write what you love. Find your niche. You're a funny, generous, thoughtful soul & let me just tell you, your lists always, always make me smile and my goodness, when u marry Sunggyu, he will be one happy, lucky hamster & your babies will be the luckiest banana eating hamster babies ever!
informantxgirl #4
I know what it's like to feel discouraged and to feel like, "What is the point of all this? Why must I bother?", to feel like no matter how much goodness you put out into the universe, nothing good ever comes back your way. It is a horrible feeling, I understand that and I respect that, but I think it's fantastic that you feel you want to be a great author, because it's the intention that will lead to the outcome. Some people may not agree, but this is one of my personal philosophies: nothing good comes easy. Nothing lasting comes with the snap of one's fingers. Yeah, there are some people who may blow up after just one attempt, but if you look closely, you'll see those people are one hit wonders. The ones who are worthy of emulating, of looking up to are those who were thrown back and thrown down over and over and over (and over), but got back up and tried again. J.K. Rowling submitted Harry Potter to TWELVE different publishers, each of which rejected her. Honestly, if I was her, I don't know if I would have made it to the fourth one, let alone the 12th one. And now look at her? One of the most well-known authors in the world who's influenced a whole generation of readers. And she's just one person - almost every writer - goodness, every artist - has been on the receiving end of rejection and criticism and ignorance and negligence. That's art. It's something we put out there, and it makes us vulnerable. I think it's amazing you're creating art in an additional language; so many people can barely function in one language, but you are writing and creating worlds with a whole other one, and that is worthy of praise. Well, in the end, I cannot answer your questions, because no matter what I or anyone say, ultimately, it's your decision and your feelings. You and pinnochi helped me a lot when I was struggling, so I wish I could help you the same way, but you have all the information and are the only one who can draw conclusions from it.
amber_rose #5
Hello dear can I just say... DON'T LEAVE!!!!!!!! I totally understand how ty it feels when your writing doesn't seem to get as much attention as it deserves... sometimes the stories I think are my best works do so much worse than those that I think are trailer trash, and that . I'm not going to stop writing them though, because there will always be a handful of readers who still appreciate them, just like I'm sure you've got a handful of readers who really appreciate your work too! You might want to try getting more reviews done, since it helps getting your fic noticed by other people sometimes :) Also, I noticed that most of your stories are one-shots, and it IS harder to get one-shots noticed because they basically only ever appear on the 'Latest' section once, and people can never find them after that...

Sometimes I really wonder why some authors in AFF are so popular, so if you're asking how to become a great AFF author - I honestly have no clue, I'm still trying to figure that out too. Sometimes it seems like people like reading really cliche stuff that are written badly OTL But for the record you do write much, much better than most of the tics I've seen around here! <3

I hope you stay :)
CassInspirit97 #6
ayieeeeeeeee chingu~yah try to write more "oc" or you/reader stories plzzzzzz coz as a fan of course i won't like reading my favourite idols with other female idols!!!!!!! of course the reader would be. jealous !!!!and u love myunggie and that suzy-gal , ailee with woohyunnie ???????no way?!!!!!!!! i hate these irrelevant shippings!!!!!sorry. chingu but i love them (dbsk infinite beast bap btob bts vixx teentop etc) toooooooooooooo much to ship them with some female idols......
CassInspirit97 #7
Author nim y r u leaving Aff??????? what about your awesome stories ?????"crushes ""chasing cats"????????don't leave pleaaseeeeee??!!!!!!!!
u r an awesome writer. !!why r u sooo unsure about your talent???? almost 75%
stories on Aff are totally useless .....same theme , ,dirt pure (don't mind my language )...very fewww catch my attention and those few are totally daebakk !!!seriously and ur stories (especially crushes)are amazing !!!!it is said stories that give you real feelzzzz while reading are called good stories !!!!and ur crushes one made me go crazy!!!!!!!

so please don't underestimate urself!!!!and ur don't discontinue ur stories ! !!!plzzzzzz
pinnochi #8
are you seriously going to leave aff?

i'm not good in literature and bad in english, my stories are not that success, they don't have numberous subscribers, but i found friends here. how could i leave when i found people who i can share with..

we're just finished a blog to make our friend stay, and now you're leaving? :'(
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