My interpretation of "The eye"

I've been there, I've experienced it, so don't tell me that my theory on "The eye" is bloody wrong. I've been in the fandom and only in this fandom for four years and analysed every one of their MVs. This too, I made notes (while on the train) and here's what it means. So from the beginning. We see Myung Soo in a dark ally. Tall buildings, dark sky, murky water. Meaning? He's convinced that he's alone. That is usually the primary stage of Depression. (I know it because i had it) Then we see him beaten, clothes ripped, being dragged across a dirt path. Meaning? Falling gradually into that dark abyss of Depression. We see a big box there, tied, things scrawled on it. It carries all the pain, regret, feeling of emptiness, lovelessness, loneliness, feeling you're useless; basically everything that you feel primarily when you have depression. He's in a dark, empty space? Depression. That totally represents the murky ugliness of the state of mind. Then you see him covering his face with a black paper bag. It has space for the eyes. The black paper bag means he's hiding himself from the world, withdrawal. That's what we do when we have depression. It's black because we put up a shell which anyone just can't see through. But the space for the eyes? He's hiding himself but that doesn't mean he's searching for savior. That's what we do. We always hope that someone would come and save you. This sickness makes you a hypocrite. I know. Then he wraps his hand around his neck and try to choke himself. Trust me, that's the kind of things you do when you become suicidal. Just hoping such a little thing like that would kill you. And then you see Myung turning around and leaving? I'm not sure about this bit but I feel it shows the very beginning, before he completely lost himself. Then you see a book, open, infinity sign and through that, words like sadness, regret. I think I'm right. It's the very beginning of the sickness. Myungsoo just staring out in the light, shoulders hunched, shows that he's lonely, that he feels stuck within himself. Perfectly mirrors the very beginning (bcoz it doesn't happen so suddenly) and then you see him, with the box on the floor. Him acknowledging that he carries that weight. Then you see the other members sitting around him. You can take this in two ways. It's either that his friends are dead and he's still looking out for them and are in his mind, or its him trying to hide himself but doing a really bad job at it while his friends, his family is surrounding him. He still tries to not to show anything because he's scared it will upset or scare the people who loves him. (I was the same back then) but they're so close to him, they read him right off the first page. They know. That's what Sunggyu and Woohyun shows. And we all know that they kind of hold the parent figures of the group. That's why they show their emotions. He let's go of the box. He's probably considered telling them the truth back then, but gives up at that point. But then you see him sitting alone, sad faced. Sung Gyu comes and closes his eyes. The eldest, so worried, just wants to stop his ill thoughts. I think each member shows their approach to how they'd help this boy out of his agony. Howon does it aggressively. Like, "Get the out of it, boy!" And it scares Myung Soo. He fights him. Then we see Woohyun there. The gentle one. He has come for Myung's help. But the previous experience with Howon scares him. He moves away and is dragged into the closet by Sung Yeol. He represents the one who'd say "It's okay, you'd be fine, you're here with me". But that doesn't help. He's suicidal, so he tries to (jump off the window?) But he's stopped by his own thoughts of Sung Gyu, who loves him so much, one person whom he doesn't want to give the pain. No matter he tries to break free from his running thoughts, he can't. He's just convinced by his own thoughts. Then Sung Jong. He looks like a dreamy entity. I feel it shows something stronger, something like we depressives always here from people who truly care. "You're so precious. You've got to live, because you still have hope" Then, yeah, some flash backs to some previous scenes we talked about. Then Sung Jong in the rain, wiping his tears. Sung Jong really implies something really strong, just like Sunggyu and his undying care. He's probably trying to show him why he needs to fight this through "because no matter what you have become, we're always there to wipe your tears, to show you how beautiful your life is" Then we Woohyun, watching Myung Soo standing there, both of them in the storm. "Don't worry, brother, I've always got your back. You'll be fine". Myungsoo slowly holds his hand. He's gradually beginning to believe. Then we see hoya again. "Snap out of it man!" So aggressive. But then you see Myung Soo fall into his lap. "I'm tired hyung" and him doing that implies trust. Hoya just lets him rest. Brotherly love even from such a stern uptight soul. We see Myung Soo still in the darkness, still beaten and haggard. But then don't we see a tiny bit of light? From above, dark clouds move. We see the sun. Some improvement in his state of mind. But not entirely. There's the box which implies his pain, and he too perfectly depicts it. And oh God the crying! Give that boy a ing award for his flawless acting. That's what we do when we can't hold it anymore. Cry, so hard, all alone, in dark empty rooms. (It looks so real that it reminded me of when I used to do it and brought me tears again) Then, then you see the boys in a circle, Sung Gyu holding a light. Two things. We're here (always, infinitely) and you have hope. Sunggyu is the oldest so he carries the light behalf of the other five. And his smile, , his smile say so so much. It implies hope. It implies that you are going to make it through (and gives hope to all the girls like me that we can fight it and win) because you're not fighting this battle alone. And that smile is encouragement. "You're doing well, so well, just a little bit. Just hold on, sweetheart, you're going to be there" The next scene shows a rectangular space of yellow light on a murky building (a window?) With the darkness surrounding and the storm above. "There's light even in your darkest times" then you see the six boys with Sung Gyu holding the light. THAT is where the light is coming from. The source of the light. The one's who was with him all this time. Then Sung Gyu turns on the light, a bulb snaps on in the dark. They haven't given up, they're still reaching out to him (to help him heal) and then Myungsoo see it through the square of the paper bag, that implies that he's finally understood, finally realized that help he's been searching for has always been there (in the hands of his loved ones. I am not sure he also acknowledges this part) but there we see his eyes. The shock of realization that he still has hope. That he can survive. (That there IS light in the darkest times) the last scene carries a huge message that all of us must come to acknowledge. "YOU ARE NOT ALONE" It's a message not to Myung Soo (because he obviously doesn't see this at that particular point) but to all of us. For the suffering, for the fighters, to those who feel like giving up, those who have lost themselves, those who are trying to find the way back home. "You're not alone..." I know many have theorised it that the other boys are dead but I didn't take this approach because depression comes in different ways, but it's probably just so difficult to get over it if you got depression owing to the loss of a loved one. Especially if you keep remembering them. The only way you can stop committing suicide on your own accord is remembering the love of someone who is still there, waiting for you. Not someone whom you have lost. I know this by experience. Either way, you can take it that they're dead and the same theory applies (only that they're dead) since it goes with the lyrics. I just only took the more practical sense. Nonetheless, I feel irritated that many (newbie) inspirits don't admire the quality of their music and try to understand what the music, lyrics, dances, acting, all of these really mean. Infinite don't sing for money or popularity but to make the listeners understand what real music is all about. It's to touch your soul. So if you are going to, I don't know, make lame baseless theories and spread them around (unless they're meant to be comical) long time standing, non-multi fandom inspirits will only assume that you love Infinite only for their attractiveness and not acknowledging their soulful music, and yeah... you'd argue but some of us have come a long way with them and only with them. We love them for their sincere music. So, I don't know...try to be real inspirits maybe? Because some of us get really tired. Honestly. I tried. Anyways. I'm so thankful that one idol group managed to depict depression so well which, I'm sure, no other idol group have tried. Their music, dancing and acting so on the spot that it speaks to me, showed the world a tale that WE are afraid to tell. Depression, a taboo to talk about. Infinite, thank you for bringing it to light and I'm forever grateful for seeing us who suffer. We're not giving up without a fight, because we have you. With Infinite, to the infinity.

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kimmyungel #1
I read a lot of theories about the eyes mv but you delivered it the best.. it's so touching just like the mv.. thank you for sharing this, and if you have time I kindly and humbly ask you to write a touching story about infinite brotherhood.. I know not only will like it.. thanks once again.. let's support infinite forever~
N_Faye_O
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One of the thing I love about their (and some other KPop) MVs is the theories that fans can come up with.. All these theories are really good and if one thinks about it can be quite spot on.. One fan theorised that each member represents one emotion (making use of the writings spotted and certain parts of the video), with Myungsoo being desperation.

Yours kind of hit a soft spot with me because though I don't think I'm at that point of depression yet, I felt those things once before and I still feel it sometimes, but I don't go into a room and cry - I find myself a legit reason to cry, like purposely reading angst, which actually allows me to cry in public (I don't do that often though.. If I start feeling like crying I will just stop reading and continue when I get home). I wanted to reach out, and I think I did try, but they either take it lightly or think I'm joking because I'm always smiling and laughing, so I kind of gave up and look for angst fics to let myself cry and release it from my system..

I have my own theory, but need to wait for me to reach work ahha. I'm using my phone to comment..

Good job on the theory though, and I hope you've found yourself a comfort place to go to when you're starting to feel down :)