things happen for a reason and i know that . but some just happen at the wrong time . you know that feeling when you felt empty and then there comes a person which fill that horrible hole in you and you feel complete again and be able to smile just because of that one person . but because of one mistake you did every just went away like wind without you realising it's not there anymore . this regretful sin i have done hurts me alot until now , i don't know why this thing actually happen . questions filled me up but i have yet to find the answer . was it my mistake or was it his ? why was it so difficult for one to understand a person and go through thick and thins together . if only he knew how important he was to me . if only he knew how i feel complete whenever he was right by my side . question and painful tattered photos are all thats left as memories that you and i usesd ponder and laugh over it . maybe you don't even miss me like how i miss you . maybe you don't even care at all how all this ended . maybe just maybe im was never important in your life , even once . all i could do now is keep this feeling deep down and hope for the best and that means you coming back to me and start all over again . but you know not all wishes come through . you seems so busy with your own new world right now . i think im just a plain wall that doesn't need any attention or even a glance from you . i just wish this pain can go away and i know the only way to so is to keep a distance between you and me . but i just can't it hurts knowing you are so close yet so far . maybe i should just see you be happy with someone else bc there's no hope of me and you again. our love story has ended . and it's impossible for us to start all over again . you know what , you were a jerk and i fell for you . i was an idiotic girl , but you feel for me despite my imperfections and im grateful for that . all i wish for was us to be able to start a new love story and fell in love once again . but baby , i know it's impossible but whatever it is you'll still be in my prayers and maybe one day you'll find your real happiness which i secretly hope is me . i'll always love you even if it hurts , just so you know ......

[irisdescent me]