recently, i watched a drama that kyungsoo cameo on "I Remember You". 

honestly , his role is making a great impact on me . His script is spot on af i feel attacked. at some point of time, i reflected on myself, ,my life. 

"why do people hurt others, but then again why cant people hurt others"

Lately, i have been getting tired of people. i isolated myself for sure. i feel that the more people you deal with, the more s you have to experience. Which means there are more people we tend to hurt at the some time. i dont think its fair for them, So for a start , i thought why not we move away irrelevant people to avoid any misunderstanding. i have been hanging out with the same bunch of people for 3 years and im scared ... scared to make new friends. scared to find individuals that are open to my danger zone , a zone to hurt them. to me, being close to me , gives me every reason to hurt them because they entrust me in handling their feelings and get close to me. And if i get comfortable, im actually allowing myself to get hurt by them . 

It's so annoying because we cant avoid this painful issue. nowadays hurting people is so normal to the point whereby people starts to be careless and they dont see a point of being considerate emotionally because at the end of the day people get hurt also. so why avoid when WE REALLY CANT AVOID IT. to me, lessening helps alot instead of phasing it out because thats beyond our control. we cant cannot hurt people, it tend to happen. 

So, why people hurt others? because we dont mean it, even if it seems like we dont mean it . deep down every sadistic people who likes seeing people getting hurt , there have reasons and they would not hurt if that reason doesn't exist. IT'S BEYOND OUR CONTROL AND THATS SADDENS ME. 

But, why can't people hurt others? IT'S NEGATIVE.

i believe there's more to just my point of view but this is just what i feel like letting it out because the nature of hurting people has bring me to an introvert self that i dont wanna be... i pity myself sometimes...IT PAINS ME DEEPLY...