falling in love with him was not a mistake. getting to know him was not a mistake. im glad i did. at least now i know how it feels like to fall in love with a coward.

falling in love with a coward takes alot of courage and self motivation. they do not give you definite answers. they leave you you hanging on the side, letting you wonder your worth all by yourself. falling in love with a coward takes alot of patience because you can never be satisfied with their actions. you can never feel loved all the time. it takes alot to endure while falling in love with a coward. because they are too scared to get out from their comfort zone, they are too afraid to fall in love first. they wanted to tell you and warn you but then again, they are too scared to do so. that leads to you falling for them more than they do, which is unfair and they know it but they are too afraid to face that fact. cowards are self-centered, they put themselves over anybody else. they want people to assure them but they wont do the same. they want people to love them wholeheartedly but they ain't gonna do the same. Basically, if you fall in love with a coward dont expect to get anything similar in return, all you do is give and never take. maybe once in a while but not most of the time. 

falling in love with a coward is not going to be easy. it is going to be full of pain and tears. seldom, will you feel happy. once you fell in love with a coward you started to grew numb with the pain that comes with it. it takes alot to be in love with them. nobody said it was going to be easy. because you going to be giving the whole time, it gets tiring sometimes. no assurance no receiving, nothing it's just you motivating and telling yourself to keep giving and hoping they will open up their hearts to you. if you love them alot, you'll go further and deeper which is alot more toxic but they say no pain no gain. 

cowards get bored easily. once they uncovered everything about you they feel like there's nothing else to you. they get bored and they will try to find every way to get rid of you but in a subtle way. Not too harsh, because they are too afraid to hurt you and not too reserved to the point whereby you dont get it. it is almost unclear, but if you are quick witted then you'll catch on it pretty well. 

falling in love with a coward is toxic. it ain't suppose to even begin. because he wasnt ready. i should have sensed it earlier. it was my mistake to go further and his mistake to come forward when he knew he wasn't ready. 

but really, dont ever fall in love with a coward, you'll end up not getting him because he is never going to act right for you.