After that last post... I know I kind of sound like a loser... only... I am one. Hahaha. OTL

I think I have actually given up on the idea of meeting TOP ever, so I will just have my Korean friend who knows TOP vaguely and my life is complete. TAT TAT TAT

Oh god. Can I just see TOP once? Holy . I hate being a fangirl, please euthanize this doggy. TAT

I am so miserable with my TOP feels and my Korean friend told me to take the exchange program and I can be there and she can show me Korea and I am like "Nooooooo...." and this is awful. Awful. Sigh. I wish I wasn't married (not that I would marry TOP or anything, just that I wouldn't have to worry about Habbu while I go to another country to be a stalker, you know?) and that I was made up of money (not my whole body... but an arm of a wad of cash wold be awesome).

Ugh.... I really need sleep... and possibly less caffeine. Um.