Confession Letter to My Bias.
Letter
: to all the kpop idols around the world. Even if you get bashed or bad treatment, there are still fans which care for you. Please read.
Dear Bias,
It took me 3 minutes to watch your video, 3 hours to load all your videos and to have a peek at your flawless face, and 3 seconds to fall in love.
One, two, three.
I might not have been the most romantic girl on earth, but as your gaze caught mine through the computer screen, the only barrier of glass separating our universe, i fell. Hard.
Dare i say it was love at first sight? Maybe not. Someone once said to me " when you fall for someone's character, everything about them becomes beautiful". And truth to be told, my heart flipped a little bit more every time your face would crinkle into that genuine smile that make fans swoon, the butterflies that i thought i never possessed would suddenly flutter as your caring actions would take over, showing the different side of you and getting appreciated by fans throughout the world. Little by little, you crept into my dreams, filled my mind, and ran into my heart, claiming it as yours involuntarily even though denial was the main aspect i was going through. Denial, because i knew it would be close to impossible to get to see your face at least once in my life, and even though you cherish your fans deeply, my face would just be another addition in the crowd gathering to see you shine, you wouldn't know who i am, but i know you.
When i realized how hard i've fallen in love with you, my mind felt clear and free, my body embracing the fact that i actually loved someone deeply, sincerely, like i've never lived before. Fan love is considered as an obsession, where most fangirls would show it through screams, but those who understand, those who are filled with the same deep love i cherish for you, feel the extremity of this type of love that has flourished. It's stronger than anyone can imagine, a bond that can't be altered by lies and horrible truths. If you smile, i smile with you. If you shed tears, i'll cry with you. You're a cool and aloof person, but you can also get your dorky moments, which are beyond adorable. Those rare peeks of the childish bias are forever held in my heart, because god knows when i'll see this soft side of you again. You've made me value life, and learn that i should never look back and regret what i did. Since i met you, i've tried harder to make the best of what i have, and to push myself further, because i've been a witness to your success as you sang on stage. You've become and been my role model now, the spot i'm trying to attain. I want to see you so badly, to talk to you, to laugh with you. When depression would take over me, i would raise my head to the clouds, inhale deeply and think that you'll be watching the same sky as me. This tiny thought brings me alive, and hope glimmers in my heart when i think about that.
In my mind, i know i'll never get to talk to you, you're unreachable, you're an idol, a star. I'm just a fan, but a fan that holds a place for you in her heart. You won't see me, you probably never will, but just know that i'll always be watching you, cheering you on from the shadows, the crowd. You won't feel it, but i pray every night for your good health, and you won't feel the love that fills my eyes when i think of you, but you'll always be part of me, part of what i have become now, and part of the one i wish to become in the future. Thank you my bias, thank you so much for just being here and making supreme efforts for us, ur fans. I can't thank you enough for the changes you've made in my life, truly Thank you. This letter sounds childish and stupid, but trust me, having a kpop bias is just that important to you.
It hurts to say it, but i love you. Saranghae.
Sincerely, heart drained,
From just another fan:)
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i've been busy these past few months with mock exams, but then i got fed up and decided on writing a short ( well not so short) letter to all kpop idols just to pass on the message that our fan love will never change. :) thanks for reading and comment!<33
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