Dear Diary...

 

I... don't what this is...

 

Let me start off light and end on a heavy note.

 

We had the interview today, and it went well although they were a little crazy for my liking. Rabi had her own performance. She was the girl in Baekhyun's and D.O's performance, as well as having a duet with Onew. 

 

D.O kissed her on the cheek though. Onew probably lost his marbles.

 

But for me...

 

Yixing sang a song for me on an interview - on a live program.

 

It was a beautiful song, with beautiful lyrics. Yes, Diary - I know Chinese. 

 

My mother taught me - she has a love of languages like me - and SM Entertainment just verified it while I was in training.

 

But... I was in awe. I felt warm and there was a strange feeling in my stomach. I don't understand Diary, what was that feeling?

 

Was it for Yixing or was it because of the song? I thought... maybe - just maybe? He was the person that had messaged me. He was someone I have talked to before and he was in SM, he was tall and young. 

 

But then later...

 

Kris called Rayne-umma to check up on her but Yixing asked for the phone and then asked for me. 

 

I...

 

freaked out. 

 

I couldn't handle it.

 

If it was him, those feelings I had previously freaked me out. Did I wish for it to be him? I appreciate him as a friend - but... 

 

I'm so confused.

*sigh*Diary.

 

And... then.. I got a message.

 

"Nope. Not Yixing. Try again Hana. :)" 

 

Was I disappointed?  I was confused.

 

I don't know who this person is. 

 

And I just got these weird... feelings when he sang that song.

 

His voice was smooth, sweet and calming....

 

He played the guitar wonderfully.

 

The look on his face was just charming. 

 

And above all, I'm very relaxed around him as a person.

 

Diary, I...

 

don't know..

 

about this.

 

I know a lot. I analyze a lot.

 

And because I don't know this...

 

It scares me.

 

Help.

 

Well, we're on our way to dance practice... wish me luck.