Finally going to catch you up before I sleep tonight Diary~

 

First, good news. I met another friend! It was Sehun from Exo. And I got to see Minho-oppa. He could tell I was stressed, and he gave me a lollipop.

o ( ^ o ^ ) o

 

But that's all the good news that I have.

 

So you know what? 

 

I was right...

 

It went terribly..

 

terribly...

 

wrong...

 

But first, let's start with Jonghyun. He's finally off of me and onto who he should have always been on. 

 

Rayne.

 

He was getting told on how to approach me, which may I add - is quite creepy to overhear... When Rayne-umma went all leader-sama over his !

 

She was all like "Are you plotting on my maknae again?!" Rayne had let her sass out. She was tired of him making me scared, tired of him not noticing her. And you know what? It got to him. He sat there, heard her sass - and found it cute.

 

He needs a straightforward girl to get his in order.

 

In the Rabi, Taemin and Onew world. 

 

Onew pulled them out to talk, harshly if I add so myself. It was uncomfortable. Onew wasn't taking it well, not like I can blame him either. Rabi was his shoulder and his ear to go to. And he finds out that she's sort of been seeing *without actually declaring it* Taemin. 

 

Rabi... Taemin-ssi.

 

You kissed - although Taemin initiated it.

 

You liked it though.

 

You've been up on each other.

 

It's not secretive.

 

And it's hard to look at. Not because you guys shouldn't have a love of your own. But rather, 

 

It's our careers. Everyone's in SHINee's, everyone's in floWER's. And if we have problems - SM has problems, and if SM has problems - people get suspicious about all the other idols and stars out there.

 

Besides, it's Onew's heart getting torn at. Maybe if it was decisive and concrete he could deal with it a lot easier. But no, you're not even granting him that. 

 

I can't even blame you guys though. Rather, I need to explain reason to you guys and give you an ear and a shoulder.

 

But Taemin-ssi. You blew up.

 

You yelled at your hyung. Yes, Onew shouldn't be on top of Rabi's business - but still - you're not exactly right either.

 

Rabi needs to be put into place. 

 

She's right to have the fear for her career. But she needs to learn that things are not okay. It's our careers. She needs to keep things discrete.

 

And you need to learn that as well, Taemin-ssi. You can't just go kissing her and being on her whenever you want.

 

It can not be seen by most staff members.

 

It can not be seen by fans and those that are not in our groups.

 

Please... you guys...

 

You're killing me.