Dear Diary, 

I'm sorry I didn't write yesterday... you'll understand when I explain how it went.

Well, Manager Kang let us have the day off. Apparently he's been "overworking" us. AKA - I think he needs a break from what is probably going on between my unnies and their respective man toys. Anyway. So. We spent the day yesterday having a bum day, but we had flipped on the TV to see a SHINee live chat. Apparently they were using Google Live Chat because they had fans speaking to them.

 

Well, all was going well.

Diary... For the first time, Jonghyun, Kim Jonghyun, Bling Bling Jonghyun, Dino Jonghyun - the same Jonghyun I've been thinking horribly about...

I thought for the first time that... he's not a sleaze....

I mean, here we go - there's this girl who's birthday was that day and he sang her Happy Birthday in the sweetest way possible.

I know such a thing as fanservice exists, but it sounded too genuine for that...

 

But... after that moment. All hell broke loose. 

Taemin... killed Rabi's heart - made her angry.

Diary, I know we both know what I mean. "It's you~"

How...

How could he? Once again... it's fanservice.. but you can do that another time. Give normal answers for that one question. That one and I repeat one question. You could bet that Rabi unnie was not happy and thus why I didn't write yesterday.

*sigh*

 

I also... received a phone call last night.  Diary, it was Luhan..

 

He confessed.. he said he really liked me and then asked to become close friends. I figured, if that's all he was looking for - it would be okay. Right? So I said sure. He was so happy when I agreed to it.

 

Anyway, onto today!

 

It's been really busy and I'm writing this as all hell is breaking loose again. Our debut is quickly approaching Diary, and we were practicing once again for Baby Steps. We were waiting for our male counterparts to show up when all of SHINee made their way in..

 

All of SHINee.

 

And who spoke first? Taemin. And to who else? Rabi. He even used a pet name... How... cute...  In reality, the only thought I had was: Taeminnie~ You're about to get ripped one. *sigh* And that he did. But then... the real focus was on Onew. 

 

I knew when we were watching the actual live chat, Onew oppa must have been drunk and I must have been right considering Rabi turned all fo her attention on to him. And not in the good sense. But... Rabi... isn't the person who should have went to say something, not when Onew's vibe is this vicious and cold.  But she did, and he responded to her as harshly as I expected. Rabi looked devastated but Onew had a point when he talked. I understood this. But I didn't think of it as the right way to go about it. In fact, he even made her feel queasy. But, she has to learn. I'll talk to him though - his approach is only going to make her sick to her stomach - and our debut is just around the corner.

 

Anyways, at this point - Key took Rabi out to talk and let loose of her emotions so the rest of us practiced and then took a break

 

What is this... hell breaking loose number 3?

 

Like I swear.

 

This time it was between Taemin and Kai. Kai made known his feelings. He wanted to make Rabi feel belonged and loved. Not torn at. Taemin would have none of this though - and that was depressing - she just dealt with Onew. And now she has to deal with these two fighting pups. SIGH. And Taemin almost went at Kai, when Jonghyun stepped in between. 

 

Then Rabi came back. Kai... sort of... hinted at it. "Just a misunderstanding" but it was because he knew.

He knew... that... of all things Rabi hated this. But then Taemin had to cut in and... let... loose.. he brought hell. And he was resembling Onew in almost every way.

 

And Rabi saw this..

 

She broke up with him. 

 

Diary, these people.

 

I just... 

 

Sigh...

 

It won't be long... Anyways, I'm writing this real quick as Rabi is collecting herself - we need to continue. 

Until another time!