46kg. 

That is my weight right now. I used to weigh 53kg, which was my healthiest weight. I know very well that I am very skinny. 

But when people assume that I took drugs, that is where my problem start. I don't like it whenever people saw that I am 'too' skinny in their eyes, which I acknowledge, said that I took drugs. That's really upsetting for me. 

All 8 of us siblings are all naturally skinny. We are the type that hardly gaining weight. We does, eat a lot. I mean, all of us eat around 2-3 portion each but what can we do? We eat a lot but never really gain weight. 

Me is the hardest to gain weight. If I got sick, I lose weight even easier. If I got a fever around a week, I lose around 3 to 4kg. I have a hard time maintaining my weight. 

I am the type that would look very visible if I lose weight. My cheeks would get sunken in and I am quite tall. It makes me looks even skinnier. That image made people always ask if I took drug. 

NO! I never associate myself with drugs. I did smoke BUT, that was when I was 15. I am 27 now and I have no time for those nonsense. 

This things didn't happen once. It happened a lot of times. To be honest, it is very upsetting. I spend most of my time now, finding a way on how to gain weight. Even bought a vitamins and supplements, which didn't do much. I still lose weight easily. 

I asked a doctor and even consult with them about my condition. I cannot easily gain weight because I am asthmatic and anemic at the same time. And another thing is that, we are mostly athletics and we got a high metabolisme. Our body consume a lot of energy and that would be the biggest possibility of all things. 

All I wanted to say is, we never took drugs or anything that is illegal. Just because we're skinny, that's caused by drugs. You never know how hard it is for us to gain weight. Every kg matters to us  While other people who diet also is very happy to lose weight, and so the people who struggle to gain weight is also very happy to gain weight. 

I'm so done with people associating me and drugs. Before I start walking around with a cardboad with capital I AM NOT A DRUGGIE! 😂