I'm wondering if I am selfish if I think that I am a good person. 

I always reminds myself of how I was, and still am a bad person. 

I tried. I changed. Getting judged for the past me? 

Yes. 

I changed. A lot. 

But to people, it was never enough. I was, am never enough. 

No matter how much I tried, that's how people look at me. 

I am never enough. 

My changes meant nothing. They don't care. 

Because I am not important. 

I don't have any say for my life. 

They rule my life for me. 

I can't even make a decision for my life without being interrupted. 

I'm tired. 

Tired of living like my life belongs to other people. 

If only suicide is not a sin. 

If only.