tags: rational, independent, courageous, observant, impartial, reserved, insensitive, rebellious, aloof, reckless.  

insp. buttercup, taiga aisaka, do hana, ryuuji takasu, kang sol (a) and min yoongi.

 

the infamous fighter who uses fists over words, an impatient and aggressive that's always involved in something rather than nothing. these are the descriptions tied to jaewon, not a single one positive but she's certainly made an image for herself. 

the first thing people think of when they cross paths with go jaewon is cold. there's something about her stony gaze that causes others to feel a chill down their spine and automatically avoid her. an icy winter who, if not careful enough, will leave a deathly frost bite.

although the overused descriptions of her have some sort of truth in it, jaewon's merely one of those people that are always misunderstood; all because of stories about her that become overly twisted and eventually misconstrued. 

despite claims of being very impetuous, jaewon is actually logical and sensible. majority of her choices are made rationally, weighing the pros and cons before acting on it which includes the fights that she's involved in. though she can't claim to be a saint, jaewon opts to talk things out first, however, somehow ends up having her fists finishing the so-called conversation. 

jaewon's tendency to be in fights are due to the fact that she hates seeing others hurt or getting hurt, especially her loved ones. she isn't afraid to stand up for others and doesn't tolerate those who have a terrible attitude or behaviour in the way they treat people.

however, her sharp tongue does also influence the conversations she tries to have before the fights ensues. eloquent and snarky, jaewon has a way with words that enable her to pick out the worst thing about others even if her observation about them is brief. honest and insensitive, she can effortlessly annihilate a person into shreds without even using her fists.

but beyond that intimidating exterior of hers and past the nonsensical rumours that fly around, go jaewon is loyal and treasures family and friends first. despite struggling to express emotions, her actions speak louder than her words and exude love and care, even if her words say opposite.

of course, since her social circle is very little to practically nonexistent, it's hard for anyone to know jaewon on a personal level. she does her best to keep her distance, mainly because she prefers not put anyone in harm's way. 

more on go jaewon!
 "looks like could kill you, can kill you." 
 actually nice and easy to talk to unless you're in her bad books :)
 hesitant in befriending people because she's aware that she will hurt them in some way 
 has major trust issues™
 an unbothered queen that's always bothered simultaneously, after all, why else would she try to pick fights if she doesn't care :)
 hates seeing injustice and won't hesitate to call people out for it, even if they're friends 
 has the ability to look at situations objectively and never lets her biases cloud her judgement
 limits others on what they can know about her and always builds a wall around herself
 has random outbursts of energy which she'll show to people she's very close to
 reckless in the way she takes care of herself and due to her random outbursts of impulsivity
 doesn't usually care about rules that restricts her in doing things in the way she wants 
 has astute observant skills that enhances her intuition, thus is a good judge of character
 is really chill and very non-judgemental once you get past the intimidating first impressions
 struggles to ask for help due to being fiercely independent and tries to do everything herself 
 doesn't give two cents about the rumours on her as she never cares what other people think
 terrible at giving advice but will fight for you
 sarcastic, snarky and brutually honest 
 8 out of 10 times talks like she's competing in show me the money since majority of the time where she talks usually includes someone or a group of people that pisses her off 
 super terrible with emotions or feeling them at all since she's so used to numbing it 
 may unintentionally hurt others with her words but is quick at apologising especially when she knows she was in the wrong
 the type who'll say no to people's request as she simultaneously obeys.

notes.
resident tsundere, adores wholesome things or people but will never ever admit that, appears to fear nothing, controls emotions to a t but maybe it's because she doesn't have any, dangerous to cross, can perfectly plan a murder for six whole months and get away with it if her loved ones are affected.

"it's a real shame your face goes to waste with that attitude of yours, didn't your mother teach you how to respect your elders or was she too busy sleeping with other men?" 

the words of the drunkard man causes jaewon to abruptly halt in her tracks, her fists clenching tightly. she was going to let this one slide even after he had tried to grab her earlier, but this just crossed the line for her— with a deep breath, jaewon turns around landing a couple of blows on him.

"don't you dare mention my mother like that." 

jaewon grabs a fistful of his shirt, looking at him dead in the eyes as he groans fearfully, "and don't try to even touch girls like that ever again or i'll make sure you land in jail again but with all your bones broken in pieces." 

and with a final blow to his jaw, jaewon walks away from the man lying on the ground, writhing in pain as she proceeds to call the police.

her anger certainly got the best of her, it often does anyway whenever her family gets brought up— leaving the drunk man with a multitude of bruises wasn't necessary, but neither was that comment of his regarding her mother. 

but jaewon would be lying to herself if she didn't see some truth in his words, and maybe that's why her anger rose.

circa 2001. 
in an early autumn morning, jaewon was born into a mess. an unplanned child born to awfully young parents who didn't know any better, they were both twenty one and had great plans for their futures, full of dreams they hoped to fulfill. but this child wasn't in either of their list, at least not now. 

jaewon's mother loved her father deeply, he was her first love and hoped he would be her last. a hopeless romantic blinded by love, and so when her father had suggested marriage, she thought it was out of love. 

instead it was out of responsibility— forced by his parents who considered the upcoming child first before their own. they weren't willing to let their son run from his responsibilities and allow an innocent child grow up in a broken home. so, with no choice, her father reluctantly asked for her mother's hand in marriage. 

circa 2009.
eight years of marriage, with every year leading closer to the downfall of their love. jaewon's childhood was composed of screams and yells, relentless arguments, sounds of fragile objects shattering just like her mother's heart once the front door would slam shut after her father takes off for the night, only to return the next morning.

although, the first years of her childhood were lovely, or seemed to be so, based off the fond memories captured in the photographs within a photo album her family kept.

but perhaps the photographs hid the extremely bitter truth, that behind those warm smiles was the chilly reality of her father never really loving her mother. 

because one night, her father grabbed all of his belongings, leaving her and her weeping mother behind along with their shattered hearts.

and jaewon never saw him after that. 

circa 2009-2010.
not long after jaewon's father had left their lives, her mother fell into a depressive state to the point where jaewon took it upon herself to take care of herself and her mother. 

fortunately, her uncle and his family were there for the two of them. jaewon's fondest memories always included her uncle's family and they had been there for them since she could remember. for a certain period of time, jaewon and her mother lived with her uncle's family until they were able to support themselves. 

it was there where she found herself truly happy and where she was able to feel what family was supposed to be like. 

however, jaewon had to grow up quicker than most kids around her. she was praised for being the most mature in class when in actuality, it's because she had to be. her life at home was in literal shambles; a blurry photo that needed to be discarded, the same way her father did to be with someone else, away from the responsibility of being a father and a husband. 

jaewon had to push aside her childhood in order to take care of her mother. although her uncle's family provided them the roof under their heads and food on the table, she had to tend to her mother who barely ate and slept. every night for a long while, jaewon would hear the cries of her heart broken mother and every night, it would shatter her very own as she'll try to pick up the pieces the next day. 

circa 2011-2014.
jaewon and her mother were able to financially support themselves after two years of living in her uncle's home. her mother eventually got back up on her feet, landing a job as a financial manager and once they had enough savings to be capable in buying an apartment, the two had moved to start fresh. 

for jaewon, starting fresh was entering her first year of middle school. with these big changes in her life, she believed that she was on a flowery path now. after experiencing these hardships, it only meant that she could only go up right?

but boy, was she so wrong. 

for jaewon's mother, starting fresh meant seeing new people. every few months, jaewon would come home seeing a new guy that her mother wants her to meet, and after a short while, she comes home to see her mother crying. 

it was a vicious cycle that led to exhaustion both on her and her mother. jaewon wasn't having a great time in school as well; the friends she had made eventually turned out to be backstabbers who would talk badly about her behind her back and it made her realise, she'd rather be alone than to experience the feeling of being hurt over and over again. 

and just like that, jaewon started to build walls around herself.

circa 2017-2019.
jaewon's wall became tougher and tougher to break down after graduating middle school. she became detached to most of the things in her life, especially her life at home. 

jaewon got to a point where she could no longer comfort her mother because of how emotionally taxing it was— to know that no matter what she may offer to her mother, jaewon knows that she won't change and that she'll always find another guy to date to fill some void in her life. jaewon's realised long ago that she wasn't enough for her mother, the way she couldn't be enough for any body. 

jaewon's time in high school wasn't the greatest either. it was there where she had witnessed an excessive amounts of bullying and harrassment, where she had begun to pick fights on a regular basis in hopes of standing up for other people, only to receive the short end of the stick as she gets reprimanded and labelled names. 

in her attempt to do something good, to fix right from wrong, go jaewon was seen as a rebel, a delinquent with no hope for the future and it still remains with her to this day.

circa 2020.
jaewon never really understood why she was accepted in yeongun. whilst her academic and college entry exam grades were fantastic, it was a shock that they gave her an offer even if her conduct reports were terrible. 

back in middle school, jaewon found a love for arts. she had always enjoyed art classes since little, but jaewon had a different career path she wanted to pursue back then. yet she found that art allowed her to express her emotions in ways no words could. 

she spent most of her middle school and high school in empty art rooms, drawing, painting or sculpting. eventually becoming good enough to hand in portfolios with artworks and pieces that she's done, which led to her acceptance offer in yeongun. 

as jaewon entered yeongun with others from the high school she graduated from, her reputation still remained and was eventually heightened as she got involved in multiple fights.

the only difference now is that she doesn't care what other people think.

major. fine arts, sculpture and photography.
academic grade. A
conduct grade. D-
 

extracirricular(s).
 photography club (later)
 community service as a form of punishment for bad behaviour
 volunteering to help with src (also later on)

school life.
there's a lot of people who know of go jaewon, and a number who has gotten to feel her anger. the stories and rumours regarding her were enough to keep most away, often working alone during group projects and she never really minds. 

jaewon is often always the first person in her classes, entering an hour before to pass time as she draws or scrolls through her phone. though she may not seem the type who tries, jaewon studies hard which reflects her outstanding grades but it's her behaviour that's a constant flaw. 

jaewon frequently heads to the school's clinic, council  and headmaster's office as if a routine. all because of her desire to fix things, to protect and defend people.

during her free time and/or after work, jaewon lives in the art studios working on her art pieces or studying.

dorm life.
no one really sees jaewon that often in the dorms as she's always working or in training or in the art studio. despite the curfew, jaewon always comes home super late and usually sneaks in. to jaewon, the dorms are merely her place to rest or occasionally eat. 

when she is home, jaewon usually cleans the general areas and her room. she's also responsible in repairs and assembling furniture  within the dorm and does a good job at it. the girls have also found her to be great at capturing insects and setting them free, just simply ask her and jaewon won't hesitate to do it even if she's saying no or she's taunting with the bug.

life outside yeongun.

despite coming from a well off family, jaewon isn't fond of asking any kind of help, especially now when her relationship with her mom isn't the best. preferring to keep her distance, jaewon juggles four part time jobs in order to get by. 

a barista, waitress, teacher and usher. many say she's trying to kill herself but this was her way of distracting herself. she can't be alone with her intrusive thoughts if she's busy.

teaching martial arts at her uncle's school were one of the things she enjoys out of her week alongside her sessions in the art studio. it kept her going and it was there where she was seen differently; there wasn't an image stuck to her and the kids she taught looked up to her. they looked at her as if she was a superhero, the coolest person around.

but of course, jaewon isn't different outside and inside yeongun as she spends a frequent amount of time in the police station, usually late at night when she has to fight drunk men causing trouble to others especially at her waitressing job or at the end of her shift.