me. just me. always me.

Why is it that I used to be very positive despite every bad thing that happened to me, but now, nothing happened yet and I'm already expecting them to be negative? How is it that I overthink and avoid thinking about things at the same time? I know I will worry about it and so I divert my attention somewhere else, but then my mind keeps coming back to the same worry. The next thing I know, deadlines are up, and I have not done anything. I hate it that I procrastinate, but whenever I try to face things head on, my mind goes blank. And then the anxiety starts, and I can't concentrate on anything. I blame lack of motivation but I know I am the problem. Now, how do I fix it? I want to run away again, but that's not an option right now...

Just thinking out loud. I was hoping that writing my thoughts down will help me organize them. Now I'm still nowhere...

I hope you're having a better day than me. You can go on your business now, and actually get something done, unlike me.

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melover #1
Unnie, I'm sad that you're sad. Things will get better just keep powering throught it. Fighting!
LayDZhang #2
I understand this feeling when you want to get something done earlier so you'll have more time to yourself after but you don't know how to finish it, how to start this? The problem is we're afraid of facing something that we aren't confident of doing, maybe if you'll start doing it slowly by slowly with enough time for break then you can start to form an idea in your mind. Uugh I don't even know if I explained it right. But I do believe that if you do some research and practice doing it over and over again then you might be able to succeed. Don't push yourself too much if you're tired. I hope that helps :)
kelkultz #3
Mmhmm. You write those thoughts down. It's good to vent. I'm sure you'll see things just a little brighter. Seeing all the books you've written it's hard to imagine that you procrastinate, but yeah... So talk whenever. Destress. Hey, I'm a procrastinator of note... You are not alone (as someone said).
vixxlover123 #4
Hello,
Just reading this post and as someone who also overthinks everything and tends to be reminded of my past failures as I let the negativity get to me and define my life when it shouldn't as our mistakes are what help us grow and improve.

I think it helps to set a time to "stress" where you write out everything that's bothering you or talk about it with someone that you trust the most as keeping everything to yourself will only make everything worse. It also helps to set up a to do list if you are someone who tends to procrastinate as I found that checking off boxes helps me feel accomplished throughout the day.

Hope this was helpful! Also don't be too hard on yourself~ :)
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