(forgive me. It's hella late where I'm from and I'm a little loopy, so this is basically going to be a stream of consciousness thing. don't @ me hahahaha)

Hey, fam <3

A loved one of mine is catching an early morning flight so this is me trying to stay awake to help them prepare. They're in the shower right now, and the television isn't as good as keeping me company as writing my thoughts down, so... Here I am.

My latest SNS AU is nearing its end, and the feeling is kind of bittersweet. If I am able to end this well, that would be my 4th completed SNS AU on Twitter, and although it makes me sad to let go of the characters, it makes me feel really proud that I'm able to accomplish something doing the thing I enjoy the most.

I'd like to say that I got my start in writing through those SNS AUs (although I did write traditional fanfiction for another group in the past--don't ask!!). I don't know if you remember, but there was this particular 2Min AU that everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, on Shawol stan Twitter was reading at about August last year. I really enjoyed reading that story--although 40% of the dialogue and storyline was directly lifted from the movie You Got Mail (that's another story for another time). I spent an entire afternoon just going through each post and loving it, and a part of me sparked... Maybe I could do it too. 

That was when I tried doing the JongTae AU... I remember going back and forth to different SNS AU accounts to check how to do opening tweets, what to say in threads, how to keep threads together... I even googled if SNS AUs were really a thing. And they were. Duh. Hahaha I'm dumb

If you guys will notice, my first attempt at it is PLENTY awkward and TOTALLY lacking in any sort of writing. I have no idea how I pushed the storyline for that when I literally wrote so little. LOL! But the important thing was, I had a lot of fun. Imagine my surprise when people started giving likes and quote tweeting. Some even DM-ed me just to tell me they liked reading it. A translation even made its way onto Wattpad! Those were some of the happiest times of last year. Bless you. :)

I think by the time the third SNS AU rolled around... (the OnKey one,) I was pretty interested in trying my hand at traditional fanfiction writing. At around the same time, I fell in love with the author called Moonlight-ah. (To this day, I have am searching for her on stan twitter so if any of you know her, please let a fangirl know. Pleeaase) Anyway, I fell in love with her work and was inspired to write my own stories. S/he's an OnTae writer, so THAT'S why most of my work is OnTae. It's not that I don't love other ships and don't like writing for them (because I do and I am, trust me), but the way I've imagined stories are so influenced by Moonie that my brain mostly functions on OnTae. LOL

My first inspiration came when I was lying in bed listening to SayoHito over and over and over and over... I kept seeing in my mind's eye this vision of Taemin running in the rain, and having this sort of heavy story behind it. I literally marched over to my laptop and wrote for about thirty minutes straight with the song just blasting on repeat. And voila... I crapped out my first one-shot, Sayonara Hitori. It's really dark, I know. But I was feeling pretty angsty. LOL

What struck me the most about writing that was the S P A C E! There was SO. MUCH. SPACE to write. It was so freeing to not be limited by four tiny pictures of my notes app. I could describe and narrate to my heart's content. And I think you can see the progression of that in my work--especially for Lonely. As the chapters for that story went along, I tried to make it a little longer than the last one, just to try and push myself to use words more. 

BTW, I really love writing Lonely. Not that I don't love writing for the other stories, it's just that Lonely was my first-ever chaptered fic. I think it's always going to hold a special place in my heart... That's why I will never, ever end it... LOL I'm half-kidding (ahuehuehue who knoooooows?)

The same way I fell in love with SNS AUs, i fell in love with traditional fanfiction writing... AND NOW IT IS A DISEASE I CANNOT STOP lol

If you guys only knew my paiiiiinnnnn! I keep thinking of stories I would LOVE to write but then I look at my queue and sigh. At the moment, I have five, COUNT 'EM FIVE stories that are on-going and frankly, keeping up with updating all of them might kill me. (It would be a happy death though) 

That doesn't stop my brain from being psychotic and thinking of more and more storylines. My laptop files are filled with barely-started chaptered fics and one of them even made it as far as my drafts here on AFF (hint: MinKeyyyyyyaaaaaaaAAAAAHHHHH). If this isn't proof of how much I love writing, I don't know what is.

ANd that is how I became a writing junkie. HAHAHUHU SAVE ME

Okay, they're out of the shower now. Got to go... Thanks for keeping me company.

Good night!

-Belle