Hey, fam <3

I guess I owe you all an apology. I haven't been as active as I once was. Believe me, I haven't forgotten my promise. My stories are still alive in my head and in my heart. It's just a matter of getting them down on paper... Or on the internet, rather. Hehe. 

Things haven't really been going great for me, and if you've been with me a while, you'll know that I struggle with depression and anxiety. These two have become constant visitors as of late. It's been tough trying to keep my head afloat but I'm doing my best. Had a couple of close calls but I'm hanging on. I'm getting the help I need, too. It's not good but it's all good... If you know what I mean. 

I just wanted to check in.

I've had some time to think about some things and one thing that I keep thinking about is writing... How writing has helped me in the past... How it kept me sane... How it gave me some sense of connection to something... (Mostly to you guys) How it gave me a purpose... Yes, I am aware that I am not writing Shakespear and that this is fanfiction, but writing has meant a lot to me. It kept me company on lonely nights, made me smile, made me feel like maybe the love I imagine can be real... You know? The thing I love most about it is I can get lost in a world of my creation and forget everything that happened or is happening in my life. But lately, it kind of lost its magic. I don't know why but it's not enough to pull me out of the hole anymore. I feel like I've lost confidence in myself... Like, writing has turned into a chore that I have to do for approval rather than something that comes from the joy of my own heart. Mostly, I don't feel good enough anymore... And I don't want that. Writing has been a good friend to me. You guys have been good friends to me. And good friends don't turn their backs on each other like that. Geez. Look at me, I'm a mess. Lol

Thanks, everyone, for waiting patiently. I'm trying to gain back what I've lost and trying to be excited about writing again. But this is where I need some help.

Look, I know this is a big ask, but if you could write me something encouraging in the comments... That would be great. I need a bit of help to get back on my feet. When times get tough, who better to turn to than family, right? Hope you could help get some gas into this rickety ride of mine. 

Love you always.

Uwu.

Belle

PS--I'm constantly working on updates but I'm really not confident to publish much... Just so you know that I haven't abandoned anything. Thank you again. Uwu.