Hey, fam <3

Here I am, logged on but with no hope of ever finishing an update before I sleep. It's funny how there are some days you can come up with an update or two in one sitting, and there are others (like tonight!) where you can sit in front of your laptop for hours and not come up with anything at all.

Well, not nothing.

I was actually able to get in a few hundred words for both of the minor fics (by minor, I mean I don't plan on making them too long,) but of course I haven't written enough to merit a post--not even for the SNS AU on Twitter. :( I've been itching to write but now that I have some time to do it, nothing is coming to me. (THE IRONY!)

I took a leave from work tomorrow so that I could finally have some time to write (but please don't tell my boss LOL) and I'm pretty excited about it. I was telling my friend that I hope writer's block won't come for me because that would really upset me to waste one whole day just staring at a screen. Lol.

I also wanted to tell you guys thanks... Really, thanks a lot. I read all of the comments that you post and really, each one is like a little piece of coal in my engine. It keeps me going. 

This has been such a journey for me. I just really wanted to try writing, and did it mainly for myself. But when people started to respond... It was such a beautiful thing.

At first, writing was a way that I could pass time but now it's become more than that. A lot of the things that I write about are a way for me to process my own feelings about personal things, like when Taemin and Jinki fight in Lonely, I most probably am dealing with anger in my life as well and sometimes it gets tiring. (But don't apply that to everything, my life isn't as ty as some of the storylines are LOL!) I'll be honest--there are days when I just want to abandon everything and stop.

What I'm trying to say is that I'm really thankful that even in times when I feel like continuing the stories is pointless, I remember that somehow, doing this can put a smile on someone's face. I'm always happy to hear that I've made someone's day a little bit better... It gives me meaning, too. I get the occassional comment saying that they were able to relate to something that I've written, and that really makes me happy too. It makes me feel less alone--like we're connected somehow.

I really am thinking about you guys, and I can't help but smile.

Maybe some of you are wondering why I call you fam... I mean it when I say that I think of you as a piece of home. Every story is a small part of my heart, and everytime you read it, then you share my heart. You only do that with family... Right? I hope you can stick with me on the long road ahead. I'll stick it out if you will. <3

So, fam, I will be resting my head for the night. Since nothing is creative is coming out, I won't force it. I hope to be more productive tomorrow.

As our boys always say... Rest and eat well... Don't catch a cold.... Sleep tight, I love you <3

-Belle 

PS--ISN'T TAEMIN'S TEASER THE ABSOLUTE BEST THING ON PLANET EARTH?? OH MY GOD???