Hey Everyone~

It’s been a while since I last made a post. Honestly, I haven’t been the best, emotionally and mentally. I’ve been feeling quite down these days. It’s mostly due to school. I haven’t been getting a whole lot of sleep because of studying. My classes are hard this semester and it’s causing so much stress. My job was very stressful as well. For those who don’t know I used to work as an event planner for my university. I decided to quit my job. Last Tuesday was my last day. 

I thought about going to see a therapist because I thought I was depressed. There were days when I felt so unmotivated and sad and cried a lot. So I thought I needed someone to talk to. But I thought about other options to help myself.

I decided to omit my stressers. 

I realized that I wasn’t depressed, but rather stressed. And that stress and worry was making me feel depressed. Since school is something I can’t just give up, I decided to give up my job. My job was disorganized. I felt like I never had any proper direction. We were understaffed so I did more work than I should have been doing. My supervisor was dizzy. The graduate assistant that was supposed to help the employees was passive aggressive and indirect. Everyone I liked ended up quitting so I spent most of my time at work barely talking to anyone. If you want to know specific details of my job let me know in the comments.

I knew that I didn’t want to work there next year and I was trying to hold on until the end of the school year. But another staff member ended up leaving and I knew they wouldn’t hire a person to replace him so I knew it was my time to leave too. It was one of the best decisions I ever made because I can devote more time to studying and sleeping. I felt bad at first because I hate breaking commitments and I will also miss the steady check I was getting, but as a college student my education comes first. 

I will have a lot of free time on my hands. I plan to develop a steady bed time and try to complete my homework before midnight. I also plan on working on my health, taking vitamins, going to the gym more often, eating healthier. I’ve been saying this stuff for years, but I think I can start changing a few things in my life. 

I think I’m going to sell my clothes online to make money. I have lots of clothes I haven’t worn or don’t wear that often that I could sell. It might be a simple way to earn a little bit of money on the side. Plus another thing is I want to reduce the amount of things I have without throwing them away. Clutter can also cause stress.

I’ve seen what depression is like and I’m not depressed. I just need to get my life together and stop creating stress for myself.  But if quitting my job doesn’t help, I will go talk to someone.