#12. Toxic

I adore know-it-alls. 

Whenever I meet one and be friends with them, I always love how they just randomly blurt out things that may sound irrelevant to most people, or how they proudly tell the world that they know about this particular something whatever that thing may be. It's that unique way of communicating that they have with people, in which they are mostly misunderstood for, but what I found most adoring about. 

But it's an admiration that comes with a price.

You see, I also hate stuck up people, and know-it-alls can easily be misunderstood as stuck ups. Although, there is a sharp contrast between the two. You see, a know-it-all would not hesitate to say a fact or correct your facts because they know that what they're saying is right. Well, they may not be a hundred percent accurate all the time, and they may come off as rude, but that's just a matter of perception. We are all subjective beings after all, and we do perceive right or wrong, kind or rude, in the most unique ways. (Like how this post is full of errors, haha!)

Stuck up people on the other hand, will not just contradict your facts, they would contradict your opinions as well. As if you are not entitled to your own opinions, or free speech, or humanity to speak. I've been stuck in this situation now for almost four years, where I've been dealing with a certain someone, a person whom I'd like to consider as my friend, who thinks that s/he's so great that everything that I say is wrong. (We'll not everything, but most of my opinions on important issues).

People like that point out your flaws as if you don't already see them. They contradict your every opinion and make you look like the bad person in the situation when in reality you only want what's good. They like to rub it in your face how wrong you are, how flawed you are as if covertly saying that you should just shut up and keep your opinions to your self. Even when you're not trying to pinpoint someone, or implicate them as a person, they would still throw rocks at you and IT IS SERIOUSLY DISTURBING. 

Like why do people treat other people like that? It pents up so much frustration in me, because I want to speak out and defend myself but then again, what's the point? They won't listen anyway. Or maybe they would listen but they refuse to understand. They lay out the facts of the situation as if that's not already a given! Christ, I know it already, I KNOW, that's why I have my input. I'm trying to help the team brainstorm and decide what's the best thing to do. If I deny an option, it's because I have reasons that would justify my opinion. Maybe because the course of action would do more harm than good, and maybe I'm the only one who really sees how that's going to impact us, or maybe there's another person in the group who shares the same vision as me and would love to hear my opinions also. 

Groundless accusations. 

Prejudiced conceptions. 

My-own-opinion-is-the-only-thing-that-matters-and-yours-!

Toxic.

Toxic.

Toxic.

I woudl love to flush 'em out. 

But I value them as a friend, even if they may not see me the same way. Because I will decide to be the bigger person. I'll shut my mouth and end the conversation with just, "Yeah right." or "That too." I'll continue to feed their ego until they're all fed up they would just want to throw all that up and unplug them being stuck up. If not, then, I hope I'll have more patience to deal with them because I hate being in a fight. As much as possible I'd like to stay away from stress, sources of anxiety, and all kinds of societal toxicity. 

Take a deep breath. 

Keep going. 

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