Greetings earthlings!

"Oh gosh merecat, you're alive?!"

Surprise! Yes, yes, my dearest I am alive and well, even though nobody really asked about my well being, which is totally fine. I'm writing this blogpost as an update on what is going on in my life and why am I so absent in the AFF scene. Well, a lot of things happened.

(1) My skin condition got better. 

Remember that blogpost where I randomly ranted about how I hate my skin and how disgusted I am with myself now that I have a lot of zits and pimpes and dark sports? Well, they're all gone now. All gone! Apparently, and I am just asuming this based on my own observations of myself because I didn't really see an expert, my skin was just cleansing itself. I remembered undergoing a phase of make up experiment before I got a lot of trouble with my skin. I didn't explicitly mentioned this in my previous blogpost because I've been doing it for years and I didn't experience anything unusual with my face. But what exactly I did was, I tried a lot of different primers and BB creams, cushions, and foundations, and I remembered I hardly settle on one brand because I was looking for something that would stay on my face amidst its natural combination (oily/normal) state and the natural tropical weather of my country. When nothing works out for me I realized, I finally realized it's not the make up's fault and maybe I have invested on something useless afterall. I realized it was up to skin care that would make my make up stay longer under the heat of the sun. 

(2) And so I invested on skin care.

Skin care is so damn expensive you know, more than make up actually with multiple steps that you need to follow regularly. Plus, I also resorted to herbal medication recommended by my mother. It's not really crazy like blending and juicing some icky green leaves, no, I just took four capsules a day of nothing but pure herbal goodness. I did that for about six months more or less and then I started seeing changes. As it turned out my skin was just crying for help, begging for my attention and saying NO MORE MAKE UP FOR US PLEASE. Although I didn't stop wearing make up, I started to be selective of what I put on my face. I settled on just using concealer to help with my dark eyebags, a little bit of lip tint and then my eyebrows. That's my daily routine, essentially. Whenever I need really intense make up, for an occassion, or an event that I have at university, I just learned not to overdo it. And afterwards cleansing is very important, I have to make sure that when I go to bed my face is completely free of any toxins that might irritate it. So in the end, my skin just healed naturally on its own pace. And I am so glad that my skin is even better than it looked like before. A healthy body really starts at accepting one's flaws and then working your way into improvement. I forgot how make up was supposed to be. Not to provide a different facade for people to like and see, but for me and for my own happiness. Once I have that engraved in my mind, I'd say I finally found my way back into the kind of make up that I originally love since I was sixteen. 

(3) Graduation?

It's still a long time coming. I still have to finigh this semester, and another semester after this one. But more importantly, I need to finish my thesis. When that 's finally hardbounded and ready to publish, I can definitely say I am graduating for sure. I finish writing hopefully, by this September. After that, I hope and I really do I can get back to writing my fanfiction. And I do hope I can go back full time into writing fanfictions by March or April next year, when I'll be done with school and finally finally have some time for my passion.

(4) Troubles, troubles, troubles

It's not skin trouble anymore, HAHA. But it still really bugged me. Essentially, what happened was that I had my trusty old MacBook Pro 13" from when I was high school and it's been with me through thick and thin. It was bulky, solid gray iron, heavy and mean looking (I kid, it looked really slick), but it worked just fine and hadn't gave me any troubles for as far as I could remember. Until it decided to just simply give up. And I panicked. I need to write my thesis still, I need to study my lessons which are almost all online, and most especially I cannot function because my whole life can be summarized in a 13-inch piece of aluminum ore. My dearest friend of a laptop is beyond any means of repair and so I felt like I lost a part of me. Good thing my parents are all very supportive and loving of their klutz of a daughter and had just got me a new one. YAY! Also, I was able to retrieve my hard drive from my previous laptop, but I'm still unable to access data from it now because I still need to do something about it. /sighs. But things are looking great now, and my new laptop is pretty. Once I retrieve my data from my previous Macintosh HD then hopefully I may be able to update the Crown Princess. And then next time, I will learn to save my documents in a drive so that I can never lose it. :D

(5) Kpop, what's going on?

A LOT. Cherry Bomb. Ko Ko Bop. Holiday. Energetic. And other things I can no longer keep up with. Kpop is one hell of a whirlwind and it eats up your whole life if your going to follow everything. Sadly, I'm an adult who needs to do adult-sy stuff HAHA even though I'm still pretty much a kid physically (I am actually very small guys), mentally, and emotionally ??? perhaps. I'm just glad the internet exist. Without it, I can't see gorgeous Kai and his glorious choco abs, Johnny and his mid-part y mess of a hair, our eight girls (and Jessica) that still keep on slaying even after 10 years, and Ong /sighs in admiration/ Ong Seongwoo is just beautiful isn't he? I think I'm in love again. 

OKAAAY this blog post is too long now, I have to end it. To whoever stumbles upon this, bless you, even if you may not comprehend a thing. HAHAHA God bless you guys and see you around!