Wow. It’s been 3 years since I’ve uploaded a blog. Which is crazy to me, because this site was my outlet to my adolescent imagination.

I am now 18. I’m still in highschool, BUT I’ll finally be out in a couple of months. I hope someone out there is proud of me. 

To be honest, my writing will never be as good as it was before, and I won’t really have the time to come out with something new if i get into university. But I hope these little updates will suffice and maybe one of my drafts will surface again on here. 

Unfortunately, I’m still battling with my depression and anxiety. Yes, even after 5 years, I’m still up. It is currently 4:50 AM in the middle of my winter break. I haven’t had a wink of rest this whole break with my mind keeping me up at night. I just can’t. 

I’m still suffering.. But I’ve made it this far. And I’ve really come a long way. And I’ll give myself that on a night like this, where everyone has just been continuously beating me down. 

It hurts, but God is still good.

I miss my OG biases kyungsoo and junhong. 

I miss the little community here and how supportive we were. 

Hoping to find a really good fic to distract me so if anyone sees this and has any recommendations, please comment below! or wherever the comment box is now since the site has become an app lol. 

And if anyone is reading this, don’t give up.

Everything you’re going through right now, is all temporary. Don’t forget that.