So I feel like all of my previous old blog posts were really negative so I am going to try and make this a more positive one.

Hi. It has been like a millenium since I have been on here but I did come back to reread some fics. I will be turning 16 in a month! I have attempted to take away my life several times but here I am breathing. I am still sick. And it has been over a month since I had gone to school. I am trying my hardest not to give up. I am throwing all of this hope and faith at myself hoping that this time, my efforts will not go to waste. I really would not be here today if it were not for God. I really would not be enduring this pain if it were not for kyungsoo's existence.

I cannot give up yet. Though I have said the complete opposite of that last sentence many times. I am trying. And I hope you are too. 

Do not give up yet. All you can see is the dark and you can not even see a tiny dot of light. But you will and I will too. And I hope I can be the living proof that things do get better. And I hope I can be happy soon. And I hope you can be as well. 

I am going to pass these courses, I am going to graduate highschool, and I am going to get out of here soon.

I will see you soon my love.

--Kyu