Some never felt love, some have loved someone with all their soul and body. Some are loved, some never felt loved.

What is love? I know you can get the answer from a quick google search, but it’s different when you really feel it than just reading the thorough articles. I am not a science gal (big words confuses me I’ll admit I’m a bit potato), a scientifically correct statement won’t satisfy me. I want to know how it feels.

I have loved before, of course, I’m a very easily swayed girl. I’ve loved someone for 4 years knowing I’m not good enough whenever he’s beside me, I remind myself every single time. When he found someone, I can’t help but feel sad and torn. Why? Though the girl he chooses is 10034203 times more wonderful than me, and I’ve let him go, why it’s still hurts?

When you love someone, you feel happy when they’re near you, and a simple conversation feels like the time you become alive. But, this is love from my adolescent years, back when I was an angsty teens. Does love between long time lovers feels the same? Does that mean love has variety? Then what is the true romantic love?

I want to know what love is (I want you to show me~). No, more like, I want to experienced mutual love, I want someone I love to love me back. All this time all I ever do was loving (one-sided) and was loved by my exes but I didn’t come to love them (that why they’re my exes). Wouldn’t love and be loved is going to be the most amazing feeling? And I want to know how it hurts when those types of relationship ends.

I don’t know, until that day comes for me, I’ll write any fantasy of how it feels, in my fanfics.