continuation of my spazz on their 2nd mission after this and this.

i'll really try to keep it as short n coherent as possible...i know my sentences are all jumbled up and not to mention i write a lot of things that annoy peeps.

do you really think i'm not aware when my sentences all jumbled n didn't make sense? 

my english may not be amazing...but it ain't too shabby (though when it comes to grammar i'll admit i am beyond horrible)...i just don't feel the importance to hold back on my jumbled thoughts in here...not like there's some english police to arrest me n if there is...i'll shoot them back. haha.

and as for my annoying words...usually it stems from my annoyance with how majority view things...so cut some slack on me...i'm just a minority pouring out my honest feelings and dissatisfactions for things that can never win against majority's opinion outside of my blog...in other words...my words can't even change your oppars popularity so...ignoring my posts would be best for you...

anyway...last night...the ep i had worriedly waited for...

honestly...i didn't watch it yet but i still wanna spazz n rant from what i've seen bits n pieces. this time i'll just post perfs i love from this ep. or perf i don't love but sharing anyway cuz there's my kid like in Spring Day's case.

1. Spring Day

The only thing that made this perf not the worst imo is the lacklustreness in vocal showcase in Playing With Fire team(edit: ok maybe it wasn't that bad...just that the song itself was a worse fit for vocal than spring day, which wasn't even a good fit, and the perf itself didn't up the ante to compensate for the song). it was forgettable...this team wasn't that great too...far from it. But they did dirty to my Yongjin kid. When in Mansae team...tbh he didn't capture my heart this strongly...bcuz back then there's my cutie spiderman Seongwook n also the wonderful leader Gyumin....while Yongjin wasn't my ultimate fav at that time, he had a very likable vibe...he looked meek n nice during interviews and backstage...but onstage...he's badass...did you see him in Mansae stage? my kid is badass n sassy. 

They did him dirty in this one n i knew it's coming but still...so it seemed he's main vocalist at first bcuz when they tested...woojin couldn't do it great...so yongjin came out main...but during session with trainer....yongjin didn't do that well...and woojin suddenly did fabulous...so...yongjin had to gave up his parts to woojin...he could've gotten the spotlight if he was the main n did awesome in a group of all these popular kids...but yongjin, as always gave his part up with a smile like my fab kid T^T....

i'm not blaming woojin for anything(other than having more parts than he could handle when it's clearly a team perf)...but i really fking hate his/and other popular kids fans who keep dragging yongjin down? bashing him just cuz of that one session. see the actual perf? whose voice cracked? and who did great? but of course...then people start ignoring him and acting like he didn't exist or deserving last rank just cuz he had such small part. i can bet you he'd slay all of woojin's parts....you've seen his high notes in Mansae...and you've seen his low notes, his high notes, range, his harmony, his vocal control in this perf...woojin didn't even do that great in Be Mine n didn't do any vocally challenging part even as main vocalist. a shame his team won despite the other team was so damn strong especially the main vocalist yoo hwiseung. but when people mentioned his highnote failed here, his fans got all angered...while people are okay with kim yongjin getting bashed n called terrible singer just for his one session failure that mnet showed. kids always mess up in those sessions...it's the actual stage that matters. this just reminds me so much of My Best stage from season 1....kim yeonkyung who lost her main vocalist role n had to do like 2 lines...opening n ending....my heart hurts for her too cuz i know she's good n she'd do good in actual stage anyway had they not changed the main vocalist to kang sira. n so she was eliminated just like that in her nuguness when she had really nice voice/tone.

even ater the perf...all the fans were just fighting whether yoo seonho deserve to rank #1...or bae jinyoung oppar did better...or takada kenta oppar did better...or lee woojin baby deserve better even if he cracked cuz he sang over 50% of the song which he really shouldn't have to.

and then they all fought over which oppar is poorer n had the least lines...even claiming their kid had 1 line...hullo...yongjin had the least and that's 3 lines(although 2 of it are just bogoshipda...which makes his line count closest to 1)...they must be deaf or didn't really care for oppars singing if they thought their oppar had one line...tsk.

with his last chance to get noticed n rise up in rank lost by getting mere 3 solo parts...it's safe to say Yongjin is confirmed eliminated in the coming elimination. But i hope he make sure to hold his head up high cuz he did so good and anyone with objective look on the perf n no oppar/popularity bias...n not deaf would be able to tell how good he did even with the little you got to see....imagine if you get to see/hear more...

Yongjin kid, you did me proud as a fan. debut n come out with good song n i'll buy your music.

2. Amazing Kiss

Amazing. just.

how many million times did i die n came back to existence?

i mean...my heart...

All i can say to explain this...Jeong Dongsu. simply.

and Seo Seonghyuk too, was noticeable. he didn't caught my attention even after his jump from ranking 95 to like 51 n his dramatic reactions(rightfully tho, it was a dramatic surprise)...but here...his singing, his tone, his voice won me. i'll be looking out n rooting for him too.

but Jeong Dongsu. the heart attack.

continuous heart attack he's giving me with this perf is just plain cruel. other kids sang it with their voices...but he totally melded into the song n he totally hardcarry the emotions n let the feels sing it for him with his expressiveness...honestly, other kids lacked emotion here...especially Geonhee n Heeseok...no offense...i'm not saying they're bad singers...they did the high notes really well...but emotion wise...no. Geonhee won first place here n overall for vocals but i feel his emotion n depth in singing lack the most. but whatever. main vocalist naturally get more acknowledged in good perfs. when i watched the fancam ver...n i heard the mistake by heeseok...it did bother my enjoyment of the song(even though i didn't know whose mistake at that time...i just knew it's not dongsu or seonghyuk since i watched their fancams)...but after this broadcast ver came out...i couldn't be bothered anymore...afterall it's the opening part n easily compensated later on with greatness to cover it up...unlike in lee woojin's case where the mistake came at the climactic part of the perf. ouch.

i can understand other ppl pissed off Lee Geonhee won #1 overall...when you have powerhouse main vocalists like Kim Jaehwan, Kim Seongri, etc. but really...speaking of Downpour team...that team was kinda lacklustre to me no matter how great the vocals...first..the emotion didn't reach me even though they're crying n sobbing on stage....i didn't even get why so dramatic when they're all top ranking kids. for some members, it even seem not genuine n like just using tears to win votes and that's not cute. i know i'm making assumptions...but really it's cuz they had no ground to make me feel their tears(hate comments? all kids got that...in fact, it looks to me like they're trying to recreate the emotions in My Best stage from first season...even the outfit colour/theme looks the same...which, my best is totally different bcuz they're the underdog team in danger of elimination n the lyrics hit their situation of them n all underdogs)....even my kid Yongjin smiled so brightly on stage after being dirtied by the whole situation, and that's what made me feel like crying n hit my emotions...seeing my kids strong even when they're at the weakest spot. acting weak when you're already at great advantage don't work with me sorry. I must say i did enjoy yoonjisung in downpour...he sounded good n to me, overcame his comedian image, showing beautiful vocals...but i guess everyone would be so focused on kwon hyunbin when he hardly even sing even during his part...hmmm...really tho...damnit...stop stealing the attention on stage from other members if it's not with your singing...ugh...speaking of kwon hyunbin...i read his fan tried to get him more votes by making like lucky draw n asking ppl to vote him to win some branded bag? whut? that's dirty play...at least my kids parents just spread flyers to ask ppl to vote for him n they're not tempted with any bribery attempt...ergh. don't complaint about ppl hating him if his fans contributed to the reasons, anyway, ppl are all about kim jaehwan it pained me seeing kim seongri was totally ignored when he did awesome in his team. well, joo jinwoo did awesome got ignored too even with his no-in ear piece-yet-badasser-than-your-oppars...everyone just focused on kim yongguk whose parts i didn't really find that challenging...hmm...anyway, all the hypes on kim jaehwan as the best thing...while completely disregarding those with same level of vocals as him like seongri made me completely lose interest in him... but i read that the first rank are kim jonghyun for rap(whut? no.), lee geonhee for vocals(no too, though team-wise, i'd say yes) and no taehyun for dance (this is the only one i can say yes...his team overall showed mesmerizing stage...n i read that he's their leader)

okay back to this perf...even if ppl didn't like lee geonhee getting first place...ppl can't deny that this team did the most solid teamwork for vocals for Amazing Kiss...this...this is what i call a vocal TEAM...i mean...even jeong dongsu n seo seonghyuk who got little parts succeeded to shine n had standout part each...n just look at their backing vocals n adlibs the entire perf....although methink most of the oustanding adlibs came from jeong dongsu...so when he ranked 2nd overall vocals n even not being any main vocals...i'm so happy...now this is one deserving ranking....his immersed n feels-packed perf penetrated the hearts of nation producers even though he's not main vocals n not one of the top popular kids either....now that is badass. this team is inarguably the vocal team with best teamwork...and this team is the one who really embody vocal TEAM. complemented n supported each other...to make a perf jampacked of vocal goodness even when none of them is powerhouse vocals. that's how you did it. take note to those who brag abt their kids singing/carrying 80% of songs...that's not sth to brag really...i'm surprised seo seonghyuk ranked higher than yoon heeseok tho...not bcuz heeseok's better...but cuz heeseok sang more parts so i thought naturally ppl would notice him more...but thank goodness ppl notice seonghyuk's vocals too...this is a team with no glaring gap of popularity between members(unlike in spring day team where the situation was just overall sad for my kid yongjin stuck in between four popular kids)...so all is fair n up to them to stand out....and i think each member manage to stand out though for some, with more parts involved n for some, with the little they have but the great abilities they have...

overall, Amazing Kiss, is Amazing.

and Jeong Dongsu is...amazing ><

Easily the #1 vocal standout this season. not powerhouse...but unique, distinctive, most individual.

3. I'm Not the person you used to know.

Mnet's scarily amazing editing is clearly proven here...they succeeded to make Ha Minho almost disappear for real. that's not an easy thing to do but a good reminder of what mnet is able to do to manipulate our perceptions. anyway, yes, Ha Minho might've done bad things...but all the coincidences made me curious...his scandal came out after this perf...where he apparently dissed mnet's evil editing on his stage...remember how they quietly eliminate heo chanmi last season by hardly giving her focus on stage n in episodes...after her sister called out on mnet's evil editing towards her? and what made me more curious...it's settled all too quickly here...with his withdrawal so called from his agency n produce 101...was money/threat involved to make it this smooth? i wonder...if ha minho really did bad...sure...take him out of the show...but he already performed this one...why not just air it....and...to give more reason to air it...he won first place in his team. ha. take that. i don't even like him....but the whole situation made me so curious n suspicious....if anything....how mnet handled this only made his popularity grow....ouch.

but Ha minho aside....can we take a moment to acknowledge how badass Kim Sanggyun was? again, he didn't have the biggest part/focus like my other kids...but he's just so badass i can't focus on other kids at all...they feel so tame even though they're badass too...but after seeing how he commanded the stage...the others just look cute....he's the badass one. he ranked 3rd...eh...whatever,...my kids are all too cool to get first...lol. #1 is too mainstream...lol. whut.

maybe ppl can argue his experience as idol helped his presence n confidence level(which ppl shouldn't since ppl don't use that argument for nuest...n his group is only second most popular after nuest amongst the kids in this show)...but tbh...idk...i never watched his group's stage before this...n even if i had by chance...i didn't even know him or any members...i only became a fan after seeing how he did in this show...he succeeded to show diff sides of him...although i guess he did extra good here cuz he's in his element...compared to having to do cheesy cutesy song n image...

to end this post...let's have a true underdog team.

4. Pop

the last rankers from previous elimination rank are all in here...everyone was all abt jungjung...but the part that really got me the most...was the part when they all sent a message to audience with their word formation in their books. saying 'i/we need to live'....that was just so cheeky, cute, cool, creative n sad at once...but done in style n not sappy dramatic tears even when they're the team that deserve to show such emotion. this team had many vocal n rap kids actually...i like that their perf was theatrical even if not too intense...though woodam fans haven't stopped complaining abt how he should be in vocals instead of just acknowledging his efforts here...not like he's the only one forced to be in this dance team, most of them were kids specialized in vocals n rap...but forced to be in here...dramatic much...but i tried to ignore them....heard that my kids insoo n sangbin ranked low here but oh well...that happens to all my kids...either get small parts, rank low or both...

So that's it...elimination coming soon...

i've to be prepared for my 2nd round of heartbreak.

though i'm pretty sure at least some of my kids will make it but still...

to honour my kids n the impending farewell with my precious kid yongjin who won't make it for being either hated or ignored/dismissed by shallowjerks who only care for looks and/or popularity...i'm so sad...bcuz skillwise...he could definitely advance to top35...but there's gonna be some really lacking ones in top 22 for sure...just see,...i mean kim sohye even made it as winner underservingly...stop saying they deserve it for effort n hardwork when all of them work hard...maybe harder...and yet eliminated even when they lose out to the ones who did worse...

anyway, yeah to honour my kid(s)...

a new fic...^^....i can't possibly write for all kids i love..but...this one is for kids who impacted me from 2nd mission.

i'll try to keep consistent in updating bug...but really... the advantage of being unpopular myself is that...i can be as irresponsible, greedy, lacking n fickle...and all those nastiness....yay...being unpopular has its perks too yall...so don't be so hung up on popularity....wait...i'm not suppposed to ask yall to join my dark side...then i'd be less special...haha...

anyway...

this new fic will be rooted more to melancholic n sliceoflife feels n less of quirky oddness like in bug...athough bug would have the little emotional beats too...but more subtle kind...

i want to dedicate this fic to myself too...so it'll be focused on evoking the feels that i like...self indulgent as always.

alrite...wasted enough time here...i need to write fics...omg...so many...which one first? omg...whattabout my voice fics....omg...no....my greedy self....T^T....at least i'm not in a competition that affect other team mates with my greed ey.