I successfully completed my very first semester of college. It was a challenging transition, but it was interesting and fun at times nonetheless. I am on holiday break for 2 weeks. So I can breathe easy for the time being. No more late night or early morning studying. No more exams. No more projects. I am free of responsibility for 14 days.

However, the work doesn't stop. My mind doesn't stop. Typical me always thinking about the future... my future.

I have a problem. It's a problem I don't have to worry about for a few months, but it's ringing in the back of my head. 

I am undecided on a major. 

Well, I am technically an Elementary Education major at the moment, but I'm not feeling it.

Sure, I'm only a freshman. I have time to think about it, right? Take classes you are interested in and the answer will come to you, right?

I'm afraid that it won't come to me. I'm afraid I'll never find the answer and I'll end up majoring in something I don't like.

What are your passions, they ask? Follow your heart...

My problem is that I don't know that I'm passionate about... All of the things people usually feel (e.g. the urge to help people, teach people, build things, draw things, write things) I don't feel.

So what now?

I'm good at writing. I'm great at writing and I love doing it. But I often question if writing is a career or a hobby for me. Do I want to write what I want to write for fun or so I want to write what other people want me to write for money?

To be honest, I can't see myself as a Teacher or Journalism.

I really don't see myself anywhere and that makes me uneasy.  My short term goal is to teach English overseas for a while, but I only want to do that for a year or so. What about afterward? Where do I see myself in 10 years??

I'm currently interested in Business, Marketing to be exact. With marketing, I can do Public Relations and Communication jobs. Maybe I can minor in journalism or English to appeal to the writer side in me. 

I just don't know anymore!!!
It's stressing me out!!

It seems like everyone around me knows where they are headed. They wanna be doctors, nurses, teachers, scientists, business people. And here I am with no clue about anything... I feel like, why am I here if I don't know what I'm aiming for?

It's late. I need some sleep... 

Advice welcomed.