This day means a lot to me, I never knew it would, but it does. If it weren't for Jungkook, I don't even know where I'd be. I only wish I could tell him in person. I want to be able to repay him for all the things he's done for me, but I don't think I could ever do that. 

So, I stayed up till 3am, because that was 12am KST, just for Jungkook's birthday T^T I've been waiting for this day for so long because it's my first time celebrating his birthday properly since becoming an actual Jungkook stan. So yes, I saw him tweet his cover of Justin Bieber's 'Purpose', and yes, I listened to it and cried like a damn baby. I literally haven't cried like that in a long time. I can't even believe this boy...

I really can't. On his own birthday, he decided to gift us. With the most precious treasure of all, his voice. Listening to it, I could feel my heart breaking. All the things I wanted to say to him, he was singing to me. Hearing him singing those lyrics, saying that ARMYs are his purpose, his everything, the reason he does what he does, made me finally see that being a fan was the best gift I could give him.

It's hard to fathom that just being a fan is enough for them. Supporting them, showing our love, praising them, voting for them, buying CDs and merchandise, everything we do as fans is our gift to them. Listening to his cover, I felt special. I felt appreciated. I've never felt quite like that before, and I think that's why I cried. Even though I'm only one in about ten million, I am important to him just by being a part of ARMY. I felt an overwhelming gratitude towards this boy. Even more than I did before. 

So I just want to wish him all the best. I want nothing more than for him to be happy and to continue to grow. I've watched him grow so much over these past three years. I've watched his talent blossom and seen him improve not only as an artist, but as a person. I've watched him break out of his shell and discover his true self. No words could ever do me justice when it comes to my love for him. All I can say is that he's been there for me when I didn't know who to turn to. His smile has gotten me through difficult days. When he laughed, I laughed, and when he cried, I cried.

I admire him so much. He has motivated me to better myself and taught me to work hard and go for my dreams. Watching him put in the effort to better himself has made me want to do the same. There have been days when I wanted nothing more but to give up, but he was able to pull me back out of it. He's been my rock and helped me through difficult times without even realizing it. Through his music, he's lifted me up and pushed me towards better things. The reason I am where I am today is because of him. He, along with all the BTS members, has given my world a purpose. Without him, I would literally be nothing right now. So how can I repay him for my life?

I don't think it's entirely possible, but just being a fan is enough. Supporting them is enough. Listening to their music is enough. Even being on here and writing fanfiction through our love for them is enough. We are enough. What they do for us is what we do for them. It's hard to believe and I don't think I can ever fully process it.

Anyways, I really, truly wish Jungkook has an amazing day, and another great year filled with triumphs and proud moments we can all share. I'm so excited to see how much more he can grow and to travel this journey with him, along with ARMYs all over the world. I'm proud to support and love him, BTS, and to be a part of this family we call ARMY. 

Thank you, Jungkook, for all you've done for me over these years, and for just being you. 

When my life was nothing but a dark night, you were the only star to light my way.

Happy Birthday ♥