Untouching, but smiling, we talked. He reminded me that there was little time. With an unfamiliar look in his eyes, he emphasized, "Only three months."
I remember feeling a sense of longing and sadness for something that hadn't even happened yet.
Then he said it again, and slowly slipped his fingers between mine.
I didn't understand what that simple action really meant, and maybe I never will.
But I know what it felt like it meant to me. And maybe that's all that's important.

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Currently 1 AM where I am, and I can't sleep even though I'm tired. Usually when that happens I write random notes on my phone about what's on my mind and this is what's currently invading my sleep patterns at the moment. -.- I hate this feeling. Does anyone else out there get the same thing? Like the whole overthinking something a guy has said or done to you? How do I stop it lol

(Idk if anyone would really be interested, but if you want a backstory about this guy or whatever, I'll be happy to tell you. Might help clear my thoughts and make sense of it all haha.)