Where have I been.

My goodness it's been way to long. Almost a year. Probably by the time I actually upload this it's probably been a year. This is going to be 1 long blog entry

I have finally started writing my 2 main stories!! Can We Have This Baby? Xiuhan Edition has finally been updated! And my Hanchul I Still Miss You has been updated!!
And to my Can We Have This Baby? Kiseob aka the original story... that is saved in my computer.... which is currently being mean. I have the chapter completed I just need to make a few adjustments but if my computer decides to wake up from its coma then it will happen!!

But yeah I took a break from the writing and fanfics for a while. Well a long time. So much has happened.

I think I am stronger now. Maybe a bit emotionless but I know now to think twice when letting someone in.

And to begin to tell you all HOW MANY CONCERTS I HAVE BEEN TO!!!

Before my hiatus I went to the first ever Kcon in NY!!! Kcon NY 2015 I saw TEEN TOPPPPPP VIXXXX MY LUAD!!! And I got to say SNSD made me fangirl a bit. And I am not gonna lie but I slowly ended up a fan of AOA It's been over a year since then and I feel like it was just yesterday.....

Anywayyyyy next was just a little over a month later. Kcon NY 2015 was in August and in October TEEN TOP CAME FOR A FREE 30 MINUTE CONCERT IN NYC AND MY GOD I WAS LITERALLY IN THE 3RD ROW AND RICKY MY BIAS OF TEEN TOP WAS LITERALLY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME LIKE THE HELL!!!
I literally found out on Tuesday of that day and the free event was on a Friday. And i finally was able to take off days so I literally went up to my supervisor and was like I need to take Friday off like no if and or buts and yes I was approved the day!!

Next let's skip a new months... to January.....
Infinite Effect 2016 in NY
You see this concert was very special... other than I almost died and almost got my rib fractured again and almost freezing to death. . . . . But other than that it was amazing! To begin I got meet a new friend and we ended up becoming the closest of friends! Along with my brother.
And for those who saw Infinite Showtime for the ep. 8 teaser... if you look closely to the back with a person with blue/ green hair.... THAT WAS MEEEEEEEE!!!
LIKE I WAS IN INFINITES TEASER LIKE LAUD HAVE MERCY ON MEEEEE!!!
AND TO BEGIN TO TELL YOU ALL THE GOD DAMN FANSERVICE!!
LIKE FREAKING SUNGYEOL LOOKED AT ME AND I WAS DROWNING IN PEOPLE AND LE SAW AND GAVE ME A SMILE AND IM LIKE IF I DONT DIE FROM THESE PEOPLE ILL DIE DUE TO YOUUUUU!!!!
But seriously I almost passed out when I first entered the theater i was row 6,7 is
And by the end of the 2nd song I was row 2.... imagine all the pushing....
But yes that was my infinite effect experience!

Now again skip 1 more month (seriously all these concerts killed me financially this year.)
February 21st 2016
EXO PLANET IN NEW YORK!!!!
OH MY GOD LIKE NO NO NNOOOOOO EVERYTIME I TALK ABOUT EXO PLANET I WANT TO CRY LIKE 6 7 MONTHS HAVE PASSED AND I STILL CANT FREAKING BELIEVE I SAW THEM!!! LIKE I SAW MY 3RD ULTIMATE BIAS... KIM MINSEOK!!!
LIKE I CANT!!!
LIKE WITH THE RECENT COMBACK IM LIKE I SAW THESE BOYS LIVE LIKE NOOOOOOOOO
I CANT LIKE I CRIED THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE CONCERT IM SORRY THAT KEEP WRIGHTING LIKE THIS BUT I CANT HELO EXPRESS MY FEEELLLLSSSS *takes deep breaths*
Okay so yes I saw Exo and it was the best day of my life. Well one of them. Like I saw Exo

E-X-O like I can't understand I still can't come to the acceptance that I saw them. Like remember when they debuted and how much... ughhhhhh here come the tears.... *deeeeeeppppp breathsssss*
Okay but yes I was broke but every penny was worth it.

Now skip 2 months
April 2016..
BAP AWAKE TOUR NEW YORK!!
OH MY GOD... I TOUCHED THE MEMBERS OF BAP LIKE I HI TOUCHED THEM!!

I HI TOUCHED BAP. I GOT TO BE BE FACE TO FAVE WITH ONE AND ONLY BANG YONGGUK!!!! *takes the millionth deep breath*

You see I had to get the hi touch. My brothers ultimate bias group is BAP so when we head they were coming to NY I did everything in my power to get the best of the best for him. Like it's ultimate bias group like how can you not. We waited in line for like 14 hours to get good view. We were 3rd 4th row and had the perfect view.
I AM TELL YOU YOUNGJAE IS WAS TRYING TO BE A FREAKING BIAS WRECKER AT THIS CONCERT!! We made so much eye contact i think I even caught it my camera LIKE dude no.
What makes this concert so special was that my brother had the best day of his life. He doesn't really cry but he cried that day and i could help but cry too.
What makes me say was that I only remember Zelo and Yongguk when I hi touched them.... they were the first 2
I remember I was putting away the album the got me the pass and I look up. I saw Zelo standing freaking 5 feet away from me and I froze.
If it wasn't for security I wouldnt move. And I was literally 1 foot away from them. Like it was my first hi touch ever.... and no no. I can't my heart is ughhhhhh. Brings back these memories I want to cry so bad.... but I'll save that for later.

And lastly the most recent......
KCON NY 2016!!!!
okay I am not going to cry...*deeeeppp breath*
Like it's so hard not to talk about it without crying. I am seriously saying this. After kcon. This year I had and still have bad post concert depression.
Like it wasn't just the concert but being surrounded by people where are just like me. I felt like home.
What to say about kcon let me start with who I wanted to see.
I am such a cube Stan and when I head BTOB was going... Imagine me. I was jumping crying and screaming. And that was exactly what I did for the concert. I was so close to the stage I couldn't believe they were real.
So here on the day btob had thier fan engagement I tried so hard to change my Seventeen audience engagement but it wasn't until 10 minutes before it started a girl traded with me I was literally first row for audience... (I didn't get hi touch but it's okay)

I cried when they came out like I love btob so much like...uugghjj the FEEELLLLSSSS.

But yes I was so lucky that day. I got to btob up close with btob 3 times. And recognition from Eunkwang and Minhyuk. So in the fan engagement I screamed EUNKWWAANNNGGGG AND HE LOOKED AT UP AND FREAKING NODDED!! Also as a side note FREAKING sungjae with fan service. God

Oh and one the fan meeting was over me and my brother got lucky again. We were by the a booth and BTOB COMES OUT!!!
I AM LIKE THIS IS THE LUCKIEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!! SO I YELLED MINHYUK AMD I TOOK A PICTURE THE MOMENT HE TURED AMD WAVED AT US!!!!! LIKE MY GUAD
And then the concert where I died many times and lost my voice for 3 weeks.

I'm not done yet.... AILEEEEEEEE
THE QUEEN CAME HOME!!!
Ailee is like my favorite solo artist and like my Brother was so lucky to trade seventeen audience for Ailee Hi Touch.... like he touched her.... and I caught it on video. Like my baby hi touched my idol. (He said it was pay back for me getting to see btob)

I don't know if anyone knows about her small technical issue but she flawlessly got through it. Like we were all singing with her she almost cried I was crying rivers. (I probably cried an ocean those 2 days)

And yes Seventeen was amazing!!! I was super excited! Like I got to see HOSHI!
So I was still crying rivers after btob finished and Seventeen decides to come out and do Suju Sorry Sorry AND DBSK BALLOON!!!
LIKE I DONT KNOW HOW I WAS STILL ALIVE TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH!! Crush and dynamic DUO were amazing too! I got pumped after crying so much xD
And when the concert ended I left the venue crying... like I met my friends outside so we could go back to the hotel and they knew so they just hugged me and I cried for a good 5 minutes with the voice I didn't have. And to remind everyone this was just the first day. (Oh and I was able to take a pic with Jre and my brother got to body roll with him too.)
And here is second day
BTS Eric Nam Mamamoo and Day6
I didn't think I would be so excited for this day but Eric decided to pull the whole him and I don't know where I found the voice for it but I screamed. And when Mamamoo and Day6 covered CNBLUE and Wonder Girls I was dead.
Like I learned to love Hwasa like... my god.
And BTS.... I am not a fan of bts yes I like a few of thier songs but to say I am fan no. My brother used to be an Army then he went though a few things and need up disliking them alot.
But we were both like Oh my god. It's them. Like we both had mixed emotions. He ended up telling me he remembered when he first became a fan and how simple things used to be.
But yes that was my kcon experience. It was the best weekend of my life. And I wish i could go back and relive it. I was the happiest i have ever been. And I still cry remembering. I remember when I got back on the train to come back home... I was crying the entire way home. When I got home couldn't believe it was all over. I worked so hard to be there and it ended. ....

But yeah that is where I have been. And working all the time. That the only way I can afford all this

But now I am finally coming back to write I have so many idea for my stories and I will complete them!
And for anyone who wants to see any one my fancams let me know and I'll show them to you ^^