Hello guys,

I feel like it's been a while already. Maybe it was because I personally missed writing so much, haha. Well, I felt like I needed to tell you why it takes me literally forever to update. Mostly because I made promises at the beginning of the summer that, now , don't seem as accurate nor possible as before. 

First, at the beginning of the summer, it wasn't really planned that I would change job. I was working at the same place for like 2 years and a half and I had a good base of friends and a stable job there. However, an opportunity came for me to change for something better. Basically, I jump to almost twice the salary I was making at once. I now work at a hospital, in the offices at the top. I am in charge of calling people when employees call sick. Basically, it looked extremely easy. 

My schedule also increased a lot. Like, I used to have only 3 days of work to the max but now I barely even have 2 days off a week. Ok, I am still on formation so that's why it's a bit more packed than a normal schedule, but still. Plus, the schedule itself was really chaotic at first. I am a girl who's used to stay up until 3 am just to write and now, all of a sudden, I worked at like 8 am , 6 am or even 5:30 am. No need to tell you I was screwed with my normal biorhythm,

Now, the bad part. Not only did I came back from work exhausted due to the hours but also mentally drained. It is HONESTLY harder than it looks guys. We are under pressure to find people on time for the shifts and we have to go through a rigorous list and if we don't ask them in the right order and all, we can get griefs , which basically are complaints about our work. Too much of them and you are out. So , not only are we running like crazy, between all that, we receive more cancellations. Let me tell you I was about to become crazy. But I felt like giving up, really, when one of the older ladies, supposed to be there to form me, decided that I would become her punching bag. Literally, she told me I would never do the job, that I didn't have enough nerve ( like... really? xD)  and continued discouraging me. I came back crying a couple of times. 

So that's basically why I didn't write much. I can confirm you, when you come back home and you are too tired to even drive home properly and you feel like a big pile of , you really don't want to do much. Barely even live. 

HOWEVER, I managed to write a bit ( don't even ask me why. My brain disappeared but my motivation is somehow still there) and I am now more than halfway into my Xiumin request. I know I am super late but I am coming guys. Eventually.

Also, it is REALLY long. I realised I liked to make LONG one-shots. It is literally 10 000 words already. Just started the xD and there is a HUGE story coming after. Probably will be around 15 000 words or even more. 

Please, guys, stay tuned, it should be out by Friday if everything goes right. If it's not, then it's because I either had been abducted by aliens or killed during my work hours. ( most likely the second option though) 

Love you all and wish me good luck. 

Laulau95