Question: Did anyone give anything up for lent? (If anyone reads this orz)

So I went back onto RPR today after around eight months and as I predicted, the site has indeed tumbled down hill and off a cliff.

It's being held onto by a few die-hard roleplayers who don't wish to end the relationships and storylines they have built with their partners and friends. Others have moved onto more mainstream platforms such as Tumblr and Facebook. But I wonder why they would leave such a brilliantly structured site that lets you keep multiple character profiles and RPs with such amazing layouts under one account, replacing them with passwords and more passwords.

I only went back on there for a few minutes to find something I left behind on there, but low and hehold, the creator of the RP deleted it. Since I created a decent plot for a character, I took bits of that world he created and I’m going to make it my own. Make it bigger.

Even though I was only on there for a few minutes, it was no wonder I hadn’t been back for so long. It was every bit as painful as I thought it was going to be. Seeing the characters and relationships I had left behind, the new relationships that formed without me there, it felt bitter.

It left a dull throb that sat in my chest as I looked back and reflected on how I was and how I changed. But the things that hurt then, that made me selfish then, they still do the same now; yet I have come to accept them.

I probably won’t RP again. You tell yourself you won’t grow too attached to your character or the relationships they have with others, but you get swept up in the world you created. Then when things go wrong, you genuinely feel that the person on the other side has done you wrong. But you have nothing to be mad at. It’s all fictitious. I don’t want to go through that again. But as I’ve had time to look back on myself, I can say that RPR helped me grow more as a person than a writer.

I learned two things: You shouldn’t expect things when forming new relationships with people even if you plan everything from start to finish. There is a level of give, take and compromise that not even friends in real life can teach you.

It may be nothing new to you, but figuring out these things for myself has really changed the way I looked at people.

…I went off on a tangent….

In less…blah blah news, It’s March! It’s Spring~~

There’s like, the whole month left till I can touch chocolate but the ‘fast’ is going well~

P.S. I got down to 2 mins 11 seconds on the rubiks cube!!!