continuation from my blerh fangurling post begging for a fic....

so as i said in that post...i knew i needed to write me a fic cuz i 99.9999999999999% doubt anyone would/could do it for me...

and just blerh since i'm currently inspiration dead...

back then even when i couldn't write...i could get new ideas/inspirations...totally fresh ones like at least one per-week...

but now...even all new ones keep tasting stale...n hardly even new ones...

last night, i struggled to feel inspired before sleep....when i was already sleeping so late considering i'm working early today...

and today...i continue stealing seconds to cultivate the scraps of idea in the office in the midst of my y job...

and even though i'm not convinced by my own ability to actually complete or even go far in what i started...

i started it anyway....

cuz hanbyul feels...

oh by the way...i found he has his own yt channel last night...

muhaha, more stalking materials...

too bad i've a feeling his music style ain't my style...

but there's just something abt the way he sings n conduct his voice! ugh.....and i'm not even usually a fan of technical singer...

but his technical aspect feels naturally blended with emotional...

anyway...i suddenly found this....so he had another collab song i missed...(which is mostly hard carried by his voice alone...with some addition voice n narrations here and there)

and he sound freaking NOT HUMAN

like...how even...

(btw, i don't think he's the one in the mv....doesn't look like him though.....who knows?....idk my eyes aren't great....but i can be sure his voice definitely is that in the mv...haa)

inspired by the feels (n plus point for rain cuz i loooooooveee me rain....ahhh...the mother of romantic cliches...probly the only cliche i love, freaking love to the point that i had to hold me back from rolling eyes whenever ppl calling rain as 'bad weather'...ugh.......if rain has to be stereotyped as a cliche...then...cliche is awesome!)

i probly missed that song cuz he's labeled as One Star(which is the direct translation of Hanbyul...he used that English name himself too)

i love how when he had narration/talking part...his voice just sound like a boy...still same like hanbyul from years ago...

anyway...helped by the song...i managed to come up with some random idea for fic...

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

since romance is the easiest though it's ironic since i don't write good romance by usual standard i still find it the easiest...bcuz you don't have to think anything...or research anything much....n my weakness is time...n energy...so less/none research is perfect.

n since i am trying to cut out the clutter mess in my fic with the usual 'author's note' aka....my annoying irrelevant blabbering (yeah i am aware how...lots of readers hateeeee author's note, even if it's not like most of them contribute much if any to the authors for them to complaint on the author's style)

blabla...

i'll just blabber them here...

why do i choose the characters i chose?

Im Hanbyul....duh...coz he's the reason this story is created....no....scratch that...not him....his NOTHUMAN voice...his voice possessed me to start new fic...accckkkkkk....hyelllpppppp

Kim Jaekyung...i do think i'd have better flow of character building with say...if from Rainbow...Noeul or any other few female idols n i need to write abt someone else cuz i feel Jaekyung doesn't need more exposure as much as most other members...but since there's that article of Hanbyul admitting to trying to hit on Jaekyung in their trainee days made me think i should just go with this...plus, i doubt my fic would be any exposure for anyone considering usually i have no reader so lol....i should just go with what n who i want...yay,....n after i thought more abt it....I feel i can incorporate Jaekyung's qualities to make her a character that's not like any other female idol i'd have picked...if i'm going to choose her, gotta make the character really worth it all...although the story of their trainee days probly only came bcuz at that time...Hanbyul guested for Jaekyung in a show...according to the article...and that was like in...2011?...the peak of Rainbow popularity....that shows that Rainbow n A'ST1 bond is real!!! although i'm not really feeling leader-maknae pairing...like in this case...jaekyung-hanbyul...i think i can use their age/role/unmatchingness with him to the advantage of my character/story/dynamics building...which made me happy since...less ideas to think....they exist in natural...

besides, they had a duet of some sort...so it's perfect.

Im Siwan....cuz he's Im....yaknow what i'm getting at?....xD....and besides...i kinda...ship him with jaekyung too...no shame....i ship him with whoever girl i like n think matches him well...n if not mistaken both Ims are from Busan...and are shorties

Kim Gayoung....bcuz i'm into Stellar lately....haha...though i'm nervous since idk them...but since she's a Kim...so she'd fit too....can't explain other reasons...it'll be explained as the story goes...but if you know my style...i like incorporating real stuffs or at least my take on them...n mix it with fictional...bcuz confusing is fun...

Kevin Kim...cuz Kevin is another singer with superior singing...n in case the title isn't obvious enough....this fic will have to do with..oh....singing....again....like every other all of my fics....so of course, Kevin's abilities will be significant...how? well...you'll see.....anyway, random but ...the world would probly explode if kevin n hanbyul ever collab....lol.

Kim Jungmin...bcuz Jungmin is another singer i feel deserve a lil spotlight...she's one of the very few main vocals that manage to make me love....usually, i don't love main vocals...but idk...i probly love her more for being a non-standardized beauty .....unlike most female idols boring standardized pretty face...n you bet i'm going to use that quality in the narrative...n her subtle tomboyish charms....n passionate yet subdued singing

n it looks like....siblinghood will again take centerstage....of some sort...

idk why i seem to always make sibling-centric stories/characters...

this time....well...as with most time probly...

ho hum...anything new? psh...of course not....

i'm not even a writer...just a bored person who likes to write to express...

the tone of the story will be a lil dark....just a tiny little...to match the brooding feel i get from this song...(though probly no devil will be present this time...unless...you mean the devil in us....which...is not so much less scary than devil himself....but that much i haven't thought....just that some parts/elements might be hmm...unsettling? if you're the type who prioritize on morality n shiets...i might try push the borders just a little...bcuz i'm not that adventurous but i like to delve into the in-between-light-and-dark side of human...the area between right and wrong....yknow.....)

anyway...very much song-oriented again...

ain't most of my fics more inspired by songs than being some professional-like legit literary shiet 'real writers' are suppose to make?

a writer am not...an overly expressive/noisy music lover with her own way of interpreting feelings she listen to...

maybe.

probly that's why my stories are always slow n lack actions n focus more on thoughts n feelings...

anyway...

let usme hope that this story will be successfully launched...or better....reach at least like ten chapters before i lose it and abandon it like many of my unlucky fics' fate...

if the love can burn longer before it's burnt out....then, maybe possibility is better.

 

now...if only i can get someone to do me a poster to make me feel more encouraged /motivated to write...

anyone? i'm just really not planning to ask from postershop since i'm still traumatized by the last experience so...yeah...

anyone?

nah....doubt it.

alrite.

done.

 

ps: why the hell did suddenly clicked into a siwan-byun yohan vid again? now i feel like making a character for byun yohan just cuz...ugh....feels...why is siwan so shipable with everyone? T^T

 

pps: if the time of this blogpost look kinda off....well, this post was started the day before yesterday...i just fell asleep yesterday before i could finish it...xD